summer
i'm bored and lonely here at home, i don't have a job, so my parents put me to work at home doing chores and stuff, and i havn't been hanging out with anyone really, so i'm all lonely and bored of chores. but i guess that's what summer is all about. growing up is hard and confusing, emotions, friends, the rigors of adult life, i'm not readt to grow up, people my age that i know are getting married, having kids, in rehab, traveling, starting careers, and i look at myself and just think that i'm nothing, going nowhere, with no plans, and no future to speak of, alone and helpless. and then i just think that i'm being self centered, and i think about all the people in third world countries and remember how lucky and blessed i am to be able to be going to college, and have all the things that i do. and then i just want to go there and be a missionary, and learn a new language, and live in the jungle, and take pictures. and lastly, i wish romance, and attraction were easier to understand and figure out, i kind of want someone to just tell me which girl is right for me, but then again, where is the fun in that. i will know who you are someday my princess...
<3 eric
<3 eric