we didn't do it for the money

[emogirlish]

so things still don't feel right, i guess they might never feel right again.

i'm not taking antidepressants yet, although i am considering it.

i lie to everyone that i talk to.

i've felt empty and alone since january.

all this planning, spending, saving, spending, planning is tiresome.

and i'm really hoping that i start to get excited soon.

not that i'm not excited.

but i'm so tired.