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i'm such an ass.
in other news, i think i get frustrated because i feel like everything is meaningless. conversation, silence, work, television, they're all meaningless. i want to know that there is substance, i want to feel it when i get up in the morning, when i'm talking to you, and when i'm at work, but i think that i don't feel anything at all most of the time, just empty existence. and it's such a waste. where's the passion? where's the fire? do i love anything i'm doing right now? and if not, then why am i wasting my time? and not to say that there's no substance at all, just certain areas make me feel so empty.
maybe this explains why i hate waking up, and why i never get a good night's sleep. i'm one of those people you talk about, the kind that has a pointless life but they're locked into it and there doesn't seem to be a way out.
maybe today i will take a nap and forget all about it.
six days is too much.
in other news, i think i get frustrated because i feel like everything is meaningless. conversation, silence, work, television, they're all meaningless. i want to know that there is substance, i want to feel it when i get up in the morning, when i'm talking to you, and when i'm at work, but i think that i don't feel anything at all most of the time, just empty existence. and it's such a waste. where's the passion? where's the fire? do i love anything i'm doing right now? and if not, then why am i wasting my time? and not to say that there's no substance at all, just certain areas make me feel so empty.
maybe this explains why i hate waking up, and why i never get a good night's sleep. i'm one of those people you talk about, the kind that has a pointless life but they're locked into it and there doesn't seem to be a way out.
maybe today i will take a nap and forget all about it.
six days is too much.