get ready for some bitching....
i feel, once again, like i've wasted a day. i hate that feeling, but i have it a lot. i'm a broken record, skipping around aimlessly in this little place i like to call the world. meep.
so here it comes, me ranting about all the stuff in my life. i constantly feel unmotivated. and that really sucks. like i want to do something. and then i get the chance to, and i've lost interest. i'm hopeless.
and i perpetually feel unloved, although i know plently of people who respect and like me. but i dont want just "like". i dont want to be "just a friend" to every freakin' guy i know. i'm a die-hard romantic at heart, and i feel like i never am able to express that. going back to me always losing interest, that factor plays a key roll in me not getting any. if a guy likes me, i question myself so much that by the time i decide that i wanna be with that guy, he's already moved on. oh man, it sucks so bad.
either that, or the guy that i go for is, like, 21. and he's really cool and smart and dreamy and has big, pretty eyes. but he's not an idiot. of course he'd get in trouble. but it's not like the said guy would go for me anyway, because he taste is too... i dunno, but i'm not his type.
and i know my mom loves me, but sometimes i feel like i cant please her. it makes me so mad sometimes. like she has this ideal, but i just can't fit that mold. cause, ya know, it's not who i am. and i'm all about being an individual.
and i'm a perfectionist who isn't too great in algebra. i dont completely suck, but i'm very good. get the idea?
ok, im done. i'm gonna go drink some tea or something.
so here it comes, me ranting about all the stuff in my life. i constantly feel unmotivated. and that really sucks. like i want to do something. and then i get the chance to, and i've lost interest. i'm hopeless.
and i perpetually feel unloved, although i know plently of people who respect and like me. but i dont want just "like". i dont want to be "just a friend" to every freakin' guy i know. i'm a die-hard romantic at heart, and i feel like i never am able to express that. going back to me always losing interest, that factor plays a key roll in me not getting any. if a guy likes me, i question myself so much that by the time i decide that i wanna be with that guy, he's already moved on. oh man, it sucks so bad.
either that, or the guy that i go for is, like, 21. and he's really cool and smart and dreamy and has big, pretty eyes. but he's not an idiot. of course he'd get in trouble. but it's not like the said guy would go for me anyway, because he taste is too... i dunno, but i'm not his type.
and i know my mom loves me, but sometimes i feel like i cant please her. it makes me so mad sometimes. like she has this ideal, but i just can't fit that mold. cause, ya know, it's not who i am. and i'm all about being an individual.
and i'm a perfectionist who isn't too great in algebra. i dont completely suck, but i'm very good. get the idea?
ok, im done. i'm gonna go drink some tea or something.