addictions and 'the five stages'
i need a ciggarette.
and someone on tv just said 'penis' and my crotch buzzed. dam im horny.
maybe the buzzing has to do with needing to pee for a while but im too glued to my computer to go... so ill go, we'll see if that had something to do with it.
...**went to bathroom and pissed**...
i sit down and ggw is on... comedy central is done for the night...
crotch still buzzing.
*amazing rage feeling for asshole ex*
i think my feelings for max transitioned to hate for a minute there...wow, so it is true...theres a thin line between love and hate.
im mad at him...weird.
im mad at max, isnt that the second step??? grief, then anger??? gonna look it up...
***googleing***
1. denial and isolation - check
2. anger - check
3. bargaining - check
4. depression - check
5. exeptance - nopers
heres the problem...i went this way:
1. depression
2. denial and isolation
3. bargaining (please take me back!)
4. depression
5. denial
6. isolation
7. bargaining
8. depression
9. denial and isolation
10. depression
11. bargaining
...then...
12. anger
so i guess im an exeption to the rule.
or im mentaly unstable and max and i's relationship was insanely inhealthy with me completely dependent on him for all forms of support, although he didnt provide any for me.
yeah, probably the latter.
-d-
and someone on tv just said 'penis' and my crotch buzzed. dam im horny.
maybe the buzzing has to do with needing to pee for a while but im too glued to my computer to go... so ill go, we'll see if that had something to do with it.
...**went to bathroom and pissed**...
i sit down and ggw is on... comedy central is done for the night...
crotch still buzzing.
*amazing rage feeling for asshole ex*
i think my feelings for max transitioned to hate for a minute there...wow, so it is true...theres a thin line between love and hate.
im mad at him...weird.
im mad at max, isnt that the second step??? grief, then anger??? gonna look it up...
***googleing***
1. denial and isolation - check
2. anger - check
3. bargaining - check
4. depression - check
5. exeptance - nopers
heres the problem...i went this way:
1. depression
2. denial and isolation
3. bargaining (please take me back!)
4. depression
5. denial
6. isolation
7. bargaining
8. depression
9. denial and isolation
10. depression
11. bargaining
...then...
12. anger
so i guess im an exeption to the rule.
or im mentaly unstable and max and i's relationship was insanely inhealthy with me completely dependent on him for all forms of support, although he didnt provide any for me.
yeah, probably the latter.
-d-