lately.
she reminds me of contentment. of happiness.
she takes me to a place.. it feels like i havent been in ages.
even as everything spins around us.
all i can see are her eyes.
i ask her "why?"
and this is her response...
Because your skin is so soft it makes me melt inside
Every time I touch you
When I look into your eyes I can see that down deep beneath the surface there's this incredible place that I want to get to, and stay there forever
Because when you smile at me, it makes me feel like I'm worth something, and that there's nothing I can't do.
You inspire things in me that i thought had completely died a long time ago.
Because you are so completely beautiful (inside and out)
and you are so smart and talented it makes me want to be a better person so that I might deserve you
Because all the pain I've ever felt in my life i can see reflected in your eyes, and I feel that I am connected to you on a level that I can't even understand, much less explain.
Because I never believed that true happiness existed until i held you in my arms and actually felt it myself.
and just as much as she reassures me.. my minds chime in..
first the inevitable doubt.
i know im not worth it to you.
so ill leave it alone.
even though it kills me
every time you avoid my eyes.
i dont want to see you torn.
maybe im just afraid because
i know its my side thats so weak.
that eventually it will give in.
and youll follow the path of least resistance.
i dont blame you.
but i dont want to feel that.
i dont want to be let down again.
because the things you say
lift away whats constant in me.
and i love every moment of that reprieve.
but i cant ask you to stay.
i cant expect you constantly.
but i cant deny this.
my heart feels ready to explode.
the fullness of it makes me weak.
useless in a way.
incapable of reason-
unable to organize or direct this energy i feel into anything but this unrelenting pounding in my chest.
Pain- yearning for more... but the hunger seems insatiable.
i can still feel your lips. taste them.
and it kills me.
makes me crazy for your touch.
so weak and powerless. over you.
she takes me to a place.. it feels like i havent been in ages.
even as everything spins around us.
all i can see are her eyes.
i ask her "why?"
and this is her response...
Because your skin is so soft it makes me melt inside
Every time I touch you
When I look into your eyes I can see that down deep beneath the surface there's this incredible place that I want to get to, and stay there forever
Because when you smile at me, it makes me feel like I'm worth something, and that there's nothing I can't do.
You inspire things in me that i thought had completely died a long time ago.
Because you are so completely beautiful (inside and out)
and you are so smart and talented it makes me want to be a better person so that I might deserve you
Because all the pain I've ever felt in my life i can see reflected in your eyes, and I feel that I am connected to you on a level that I can't even understand, much less explain.
Because I never believed that true happiness existed until i held you in my arms and actually felt it myself.
and just as much as she reassures me.. my minds chime in..
first the inevitable doubt.
i know im not worth it to you.
so ill leave it alone.
even though it kills me
every time you avoid my eyes.
i dont want to see you torn.
maybe im just afraid because
i know its my side thats so weak.
that eventually it will give in.
and youll follow the path of least resistance.
i dont blame you.
but i dont want to feel that.
i dont want to be let down again.
because the things you say
lift away whats constant in me.
and i love every moment of that reprieve.
but i cant ask you to stay.
i cant expect you constantly.
but i cant deny this.
my heart feels ready to explode.
the fullness of it makes me weak.
useless in a way.
incapable of reason-
unable to organize or direct this energy i feel into anything but this unrelenting pounding in my chest.
Pain- yearning for more... but the hunger seems insatiable.
i can still feel your lips. taste them.
and it kills me.
makes me crazy for your touch.
so weak and powerless. over you.