the one thing
why do i get motivation to write in here only when a bad thought comes to mind? some need to be heard or get sympathy or something? qute pathetic i guess. on one side.... 3-4 years ago if i looked at myself now and the situations i'm in i would be proud and so happy to know things turned out the way they are. but on the other side, my thinking about it now, it seems liek i should be happy, and i am most of the time. but when i get in this mood i feel like ive missed out on something i had. and all the times iv enjoyed myself were great, but "something" else bneing there would have made things greater. don't get me wrong, i love how things are, but it's that one emptiness in me.
things come at me from nowhere and suprise me,. but its like i push them away. and when those same things are there and i actually want them, it's like they back away and i can't have them. what to do?
so ive been quiet my life, not really anymore though... only in certain situations. i keep to myself, try to be as humble as possible, cause thats just how i am. but my friends keep pushing me to speak up more and show more, but i'm happy as i am. what to do?
ok this is turning into a song so i'm stoppin. and for a life update: things are wonderful! fun times... i'm studying more than usual but it's not taking away from the prime partying time.
-Richie
ps - sorry for the gay username... it was of times past, not much i can do of it now
things come at me from nowhere and suprise me,. but its like i push them away. and when those same things are there and i actually want them, it's like they back away and i can't have them. what to do?
so ive been quiet my life, not really anymore though... only in certain situations. i keep to myself, try to be as humble as possible, cause thats just how i am. but my friends keep pushing me to speak up more and show more, but i'm happy as i am. what to do?
ok this is turning into a song so i'm stoppin. and for a life update: things are wonderful! fun times... i'm studying more than usual but it's not taking away from the prime partying time.
-Richie
ps - sorry for the gay username... it was of times past, not much i can do of it now