life...if you can call it that

[emochild531]

Well well, lets start this entry off with i fucking hate ignorant, vain, fat, fucks, that goes to everyone so please dont assume. now that ive said that i can talk about whats been going on . well, my dads in the hospital so im just kinda trying to keep my food down im so nervous. on a different note, things havent gotten bad entill a few days ago and they just seem to get worse. yeah for a while i was in a really good mood A REALLY GOOD MOOD so good i even call and ex-boyfriend and wow, that never happens i dont think if i had a lobotomy i would do that,but i did which wasnt as bad as i thought it would be but then again no good came out of it either but i really dont care. umm..about five minutes ago i got my heart ripped out yeah, im getting use to it. ive exceeded the pathetic level way beyond possibility. As of right now this years happiness is riding on a concert ticket and gas money. ill be busting my ass trying to go to warped tour in atlanta if my dads ok, cause if he turns out to be sick again im getting shipped up north never to see my baby brother again and to watch my dad and grandmother die, oh sounds like fun! but if hes not then im gonna be happy for a long time thats how important this concert is to me. Once again ive fallen victim to this thing called lust the greatest part of it is the person i like has no idea i have feelings for him and i dont plan telling him either id be just a waste although ever one i that know tells me i should tell the person or ask them out or call them but i wont its pretty pointless to tell a person you care about them when its obvious that they care about another so, yeah. Besides all of that bullshit life is pretty much the same im surviving off my music. oh another key point im dropping all the people that are bad for me like the liars and vain, stupid, shitty people i surround myself with so mybe ill be better off and if not them well its not like anyone gave a fuck in the first place.

-stand up for whats right, question authority, fuck the government and make love not war unless there ignorant.