one dancers life..

[emochick32]

i hate dance. it's something that used to be my life but as of yesterday it's all over. i had to bite my lip almost all class yesterday because i was fighting the tears will all my might. i was just so upset about everything. im not sure if im going to stay in dance class this semester anymore. nobody in the class likes me, well except andy but that's just because he is nice to everybody. but other then that i haven't really talked to anyone in the class so far and all i feel is negative stuff from everyone, i just know they don't like me or they are just to stuck up and think that they are the best dancers in the whole freaking world. i used to think that dance was a god given tallent for me, maybe it was..who knows but it's definatly gone. if this was something that im supposed to be good at i wouldn't have a screwed up back that limits pretty much everything and bad knees. maybe he took it away because im not using it for anything. but then again i don't have anything that i COULD use it for. all my dance shows that meant something to me nobody came to with the exception of will once, however he left the room to go do something else and missed my dance so i guess it doesn't even count that he came. even my own parents wouldn't come see me. you know what the worst part is? just as a hint to ANYONE that reads this, if you have a friend that is a dancer or whatever and they have a show coming up that they invite you to and say that they would like you to come you better make a good effort to be there! im not saying that it's going to be the best night of your life but to the person that you're going to see, just you being there could be the most important thing ever to them. im not kidding. we practise for months over and over again and put a lot of hard hours into prepairing for it, all that they would want is for the people that they love most in life to be there. personally i don't think that it is too much to ask. two hours of your time, that's it. again im not saying it will be the best two hours but it means so much for the person. so this is partly a reason for why i just don't want to dance anymore. not even will would come see me and it's just not fun anymore.

sorry for such a negative entry but i had to get it out somehow.