important pieces of something greater
in every possible way, things seem different today, not like yesterday. when days never change and it’s three years later. it’s like your life, hasn’t changed and it’s three years late. how does it feel to be three years late and watching your youth drift away? i know that matters don’t matter as much as you think they do. you will only be yourself when you can never be yourself. and you will only be yourself when you understand what you know. i require you to stop and look up. so you let me hear songs that were written all about you. the good songs weren’t written for you, they’ll never be about you. these are the reasons things should be unknown. sentences i write them down. so i ignore them, and you should too, you should ignore every word. and happiness, did it happen sooner than the doubt it cost you. you learn from the mistakes that i taught you. i’m impatient for a reason to complain about winter, making me see through again. if your heart gets in the way of what you wanted to deny, everything i say is not uncommon. and it’s already gone and nothing can take it back. it’s already gone and nothing can take it from being gone. isn’t it romantic, to be romantic when you don’t understand what you love? can you tell me ten words that you’d use, to describe the world? the more i say the more i keep confusing things, to make me feel complete. so i keep lying to be honest, it’s not a real defeat. it’s what you thought you could be if you tried much harder. and i know that what is here will not be here much longer unless we alter what we have, or alter what we don’t have, what we won’t have, what we’ve never seemed to have. what we tried to have, we’ve failed to have and all of this was just so we won’t stay the same, if we can’t be the same, we won’t stay the same. we stop in every passing place to watch the world move faster than we do. watch it pass with our eyes closed the way we usually choose to. so I’ll wait until i find the remote part of your heart when no where else will let us choose a comfortable start. and even if the breath between us smells of alcohol, call it confusion in the best way possible.