poolside madness and vodka
this weekend has worn me out. i haven't stopped since thursday. 2 vodka nites and a lot of driving. i love working at the store in murfreesboro besides the fact that they've been raping me as far as hours are concerned. but i just look at that as being stupid on their part because i had the highest sales the first week i was there. so whatever. i think i liked the thought of living in murfreesboro more than i actually like living there. but its still cool i guess. i've been thinking about the way things used to be a lot lately. about times when i was a lot happier. in my attempts at being thrifty i bought a buy one get one pack of 27's. i didn't think much about it other than how i really don't like them very much, but as i opened the pack it brought back so many memories. its weird how you can not think of something for what feels like forever and then it all comes back. but i can feel myself forgetting. and regardless of all the shit i've said in the past i really don't want to forget. i'm scared that i might never completely, 100% get over things that have happened in the past. but whats crazy to me is that i've gotten over all of the negative. i've made amends with the people who matter. but the hard part is letting go of the good in a person.