Fuck
well. Welcome to life.....rite?? ha ha ha what a world we live in. I cant stand the insecurety and deep dying feeling that i have. i want to love him but he is living a lie and i cant stand that, I need to tell people how i feel but im so scared that people will judge me for that and ill lose friemds. ive always said that i dont give a fuck...im me and thats what u get... yet i still have this "guilty conscience" type thing telling me that this is "wrong" and i shouldnt be doing it. i love men..... i love women.... yet i lean so much more twards men then anything. Boxerboy.. you helped alot. the inheritance really dosent matter anymore.... im listening to AFI - but home is nowere- and i keep thinking what it would be like to live my life as me, not as the kid jake, the "cool goth kid " i need to be me and not keep this blind of social conformity lingering. i need to rip this blind down and show JAKES true colors. let the LIGHT SHINE!! ha ha . and that is definately easier said then done. and another thing.. there is this girl rachael. She is unbelievable, yet i dont know how to deal with that and she dosnt know. either. ..... OH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! god fuckin damnit i am so fuckin confused yet distraut over this whole fucking thing! y should i care? Y DO I CARE!!!!!
what did i do to deserve this
y is society so fuckin stupid
y is social conformity
"THE THING TO DO"
can we not just be who we r?
without judgement nor denile?