I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO
those of you that know today is the day that my best friend, that was also one of my boyfriend, day of his death. he died three years ago on this day. i want to just sit here and cry listening to our song but i am at work and i can't mess up my make up (thinking like amanda). i didn't want to go to work today but i have to cause i want to by my good friends warp tour tickets. so for the people that i take with me feel real special cause i work threw this day and it is really hard. i just want to brake down and cry but i won't if i josh today i might just cry and cry fuck my eyes are starting to cry fuck. but i don't want to be bother today cause it is a really sad day for me. i feel like i have no emotions today and i don't think i will for the rest of the week i am just so sad well i am going to stop fucking complaning cause i know this pisses everyone of so i am going to shut the fuck up