this is my final goodbye, the last kiss good night

[emo_tears_]

So, I haven't updated in a while because ive been really busy. im sry. i went to another party for after-prom ppl and hooked up w/ some really drunk ppl who were all dressed up from prom. i also got really drunk. y cant i just do one frekin thing right?? i drink to much, so i try to be straight edge. but i fuk that up to. the only ppl who r even there for me anymore r samm, chelsea, n kimi. god i dunno wut to fukin do w/ my life. i wanna b a good person but i also wanna just go drink and smoke and get crunkd and fuk ppl. i know that is so wrong but i cant help how i feel. but u know what im not gonna do those things, im just gonna sit here and cut myself, deeper n deeper till the pain goes away. i wanna b like girl jazmin i see at parties cause she can just fuk ppl and not care. but i do care. but i cant change. well im gonna go listen to some emo music and cry n eat my fukin heart out

DOES ANYBODY EVEN LOVE ME?