wow... so much changed... =)
I came to realize that while making people happy and putting my own emotions to the side wont make me happy I finally told everyone to get fucked and i bucked out on my own and now i live in a condo with and awesome roomate and i have a decent girlfriend who i love but can really get on my nerves sometimes but i also have 2 jobs and i think i could really go somewhere in the publix company im happy most the time and high most te time to i basically work sleep see my girl friend and get high but im enjoying myself and im happy and thats all i ever really wanted =)