basketball, boys
So, basketball has really been getting me down. I don't know why its like if we have a game I feel sick the whole day. Its like it is my last time to show what I really have ya know. To be perfect, I know next year I won't even care about the basektball season, but now its like life and death. I felt like I was going to die before the Pryor game this week. I threw up, my hands were tingleing(sp) and I couldn't catch my breathe. I had never felt like that before and I know that it is only going to get worse tomorrow against Grove(definilty not looking forward to the game)I compare myself to my sister and it sucks because she is an amazing athlete and just can't do the things she can, I just get so mad sometimes, but then again I think to myself, wait shes on my team, lol, awesome. Oh and the whole owen situation, I liked him sooo much towards the beginning of our relationship now I'm just kinda bored, I always do this with guys, I just always start to get annoyed and I push them away after about a month. I mean todd and I did it for like 2years, I did it with keith and now on to owen, he is so good to me though its like I really want to stay with him because I know I will miss him in 2weeks but I don't want to see him, lol, ya I know I make no since but whatev. I'm outies, Emo.....