All the leaves are brown...

[emo_raymo]

My life:

Worthless
Confusing
Spontaneous
Painful
Enlightening
Daunting
Honest
Half-empty
Hedonistic

So I feel like shit...
I have what feels like cancer...
Didn't go to classes today...

And I have fuckloads of work to do.

I have like 3 weeks.

I need

to study.

I have to go home tomorrow so that my phone bill
is paid.

There's nothing to look forward to.
There's nothing more to look back at.
I have nothing now.

So what is there to live for?

Japanese homework I guess.

I've been sleeping more (a sign of depression)
I've been smoking less (a sign of quitting)
I've been thinking about life more (a sign of desperation)
I've been social less (a sign of paranoia)

I need to get a fucking grip.

quote of the day:

"Mizu o yonde kimasu."

translation

"I'm gonna go read water and come back."

...