HELLO AGAIN!
Well, it sure has been a while, journal o' mine! A lot has changed. I'm now semi-comfortable with the group of friends I have. I seem to be getting mass loveage, which is awesome for a change :D Phoebe, Kodie, Amos, Skii, Kate, Travis ... and Zoe ^_^
Zoe and I kinda have a thing going on. Before I was anxious to name it, the same way I was with Amanda, but then I started freaking out and I hurt Zoe, and myself. But things are back on track and moving slowly ... it's funny, I've always wanted to move into relationships fast, and we get to a point where it's like "where else can we go?" or "I'm not ready to go further". And I liked it that way, we'd find peace and stay there for the rest of our relationship. But suddenly ... I'm really liking taking it slow! THAT'S SO WEIRD FOR ME! It really is! But it's true and gosh, it's exciting! The nerves, the smiling at random points, the aimlessly thinking about how it might all play out, instead of planning how to make it play out. I want to kiss her more than anything, I'm so ready to taste her, yet I'm feeling ... patient. Wow. That's not a word one associates with me too often :D But again, it's true ... I'm patiently waiting. Anticipating. Before, I would have associated this feeling with "I'm scared of doing wrong", but I honest to God believe this is it, I'm happy where I am. I mean, there's a few little kinks. But it's progressing nicely and I'm ranting but it's such a good feeling. I get the undeniable feeling that I'm going to push things too far at the party ... but I warned Zoe and she doesn't seem to mind. I even flirtingly said something about secuding her, and I don't know if she meant it like this but I'm sure she flirted back :D WEEEE!
:D SO. What else can I say?
I'm a vegetarian now?
And ... oh, I came out :D Mum and dad know I'm a dyke and they're fine with it. And so do most of my friends.
Pfft yeah that's all for now :D:D:D:D
Zoe and I kinda have a thing going on. Before I was anxious to name it, the same way I was with Amanda, but then I started freaking out and I hurt Zoe, and myself. But things are back on track and moving slowly ... it's funny, I've always wanted to move into relationships fast, and we get to a point where it's like "where else can we go?" or "I'm not ready to go further". And I liked it that way, we'd find peace and stay there for the rest of our relationship. But suddenly ... I'm really liking taking it slow! THAT'S SO WEIRD FOR ME! It really is! But it's true and gosh, it's exciting! The nerves, the smiling at random points, the aimlessly thinking about how it might all play out, instead of planning how to make it play out. I want to kiss her more than anything, I'm so ready to taste her, yet I'm feeling ... patient. Wow. That's not a word one associates with me too often :D But again, it's true ... I'm patiently waiting. Anticipating. Before, I would have associated this feeling with "I'm scared of doing wrong", but I honest to God believe this is it, I'm happy where I am. I mean, there's a few little kinks. But it's progressing nicely and I'm ranting but it's such a good feeling. I get the undeniable feeling that I'm going to push things too far at the party ... but I warned Zoe and she doesn't seem to mind. I even flirtingly said something about secuding her, and I don't know if she meant it like this but I'm sure she flirted back :D WEEEE!
:D SO. What else can I say?
I'm a vegetarian now?
And ... oh, I came out :D Mum and dad know I'm a dyke and they're fine with it. And so do most of my friends.
Pfft yeah that's all for now :D:D:D:D