Far too much time has passed
Seriously how long has it been since I last recorded my thoughts, or at least as much of my thoughts as I can bear to transfer to text.
So how's my life? A simple question in its self but hard to answer. My life as always seem up and down, I'm loving my job so much. I never tire of it, it's so creative and I get complete satisfaction when it's completed. Although the actual aspect of management leaves alot to be desired, I guess we make do right?
I still seem stuck in the same vicious circle where I think I'm attracted to a person but really I think I'm just in lust. As soon as it's viable thats it crush over!! I keep getting these overwheling feelings about wanting to be in something serious, something worth wanting and working towards. Something normal with someone normal.
Friend numbers seem to be dwindling, I assume it's down to me. Either due to how I am actually becoming more and more bitter, resentful and just abusive. Maybe it's just growing up on everyones part? Whatever it is I'm having troouble relating to people, as much as I want to socialise I want to stay away to avoid my aggrevation.
I want things to change, evolve in such a way that I become a such better person.
I doubt this will happen but hey!
So how's my life? A simple question in its self but hard to answer. My life as always seem up and down, I'm loving my job so much. I never tire of it, it's so creative and I get complete satisfaction when it's completed. Although the actual aspect of management leaves alot to be desired, I guess we make do right?
I still seem stuck in the same vicious circle where I think I'm attracted to a person but really I think I'm just in lust. As soon as it's viable thats it crush over!! I keep getting these overwheling feelings about wanting to be in something serious, something worth wanting and working towards. Something normal with someone normal.
Friend numbers seem to be dwindling, I assume it's down to me. Either due to how I am actually becoming more and more bitter, resentful and just abusive. Maybe it's just growing up on everyones part? Whatever it is I'm having troouble relating to people, as much as I want to socialise I want to stay away to avoid my aggrevation.
I want things to change, evolve in such a way that I become a such better person.
I doubt this will happen but hey!