JuSt tHiNkInG!

[emo_loser_punk]

well im writting early cuz i have sum stuff on my mind and i need to let them out. well last nite when i was with daniel we were talking and stuff and i started to cry cuz im happy with him and i have never had tears of joy. but as i cried more my tears of joy turned into tears of sadness. which really sux! i started thinking bout him leaving to college and how far away we'll be from eachother. damn it! it brakes my heart everytime i think bout it and last nite he told me "we'll just have to make the best of the time we have left" and me being the dumbass that i am i told him that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with him which i think is stupid that i said that. i think ...... well im pretty sure i scared him. im such an idiot! its just that i actually have sum1 that cares and loves me for who i am! and i have to go and ruin it by saying sumthing fucken totally stupid! and i know it was stupid cuz after i said that he didnt say anything, i mean i didnt expect him to but yeah know. i personally think i need to slow down on my feelings before they get too damn strong and i mess up everything! i dont wanna lose him i really dont! so thats what im gunna do im gunna gain control of my feelings if i can so i wont lose that specil sum1~!~!~!~! i dont want him to think of me as sumthing desperate! tho im not! well honestly i dont want this entry to change anything between me and daniel. just put it this way im pretty much talking out of my ass lol! well i better go cuz i wanna watch cartoons! lol bye bye
I LUV DANNY YAY!
NESSAH*********