don't you just wish we could go to a treos show?
recent: i work @ben&jerry's on newbury street. we've got clearance clearwater on vinyl, abbey's getting bigger, so many less cigarettes smoked by me, so much more second hand smoke from others, however lots of plants and life forces in the apt to conquer the stagnant scent, breathing deeply, trying to be positive. super fucked up hormones, fluctuating moods, manic-depressive, high to low, paying bills, wrote a paper for my ethics/philosophy class on 'higher' and 'lower' pleasures, exploring the parks of boston, considering what i really need and degenerating wanton wants.
tyler and i saw the coolest sea turtle yesterday when we snuck into the aquarium. and the teeniest tiniest seahorses that were so cute!
also wicked cute english boys said "cheers" to me at the pru and i just about died, not really but my hand automatically flew over my heart and i beamed. (ik i'm s0 gay.)
when filling out applications and stuff, i always pause when it asks for my address.
bridgewater..if i want my mum to get it and tell me about it.
02115, because i mean, i do live here, but i''ve yet to receive anything
..and i find myself wistful, wishing to print, "golden gate avenue" as i once did.
there are so many possibilities..in the world..(college, which seems necessary but i know isn't and is expensive and doesn't guarantee happiness,...
americorps or peacecorps, ensuring my will to travel and make a difference in the world by helping people...
working full time at a 'better' job (read: in which i make more money) like @ a bank, except i don't want to get fake nails and wear sweaters and bracelets, matching earrings and necklace from tiffany's or deal with $$ ever, etc)
and i can't commit myself and say yes to just one thing, although that seems to be the more systematic and successful way of doing things.
i just want to see what's the most fun. i'll try you out, but i can't be a full-time investor. if i choose one, i'll lose all the others!
in news articles i read stories of people whose name appears beside a picture in italics, followed by a nationality and the word, "explorer". and perhaps accompanied by the word "photographer."
but that's what i am! and that's what i want to be!
current interests include :glassblowing, reiki attunement, color therapy, skydiving, being a recluse in a dense faraway forest, doing what those guys in planet earth did when they jumped into underground caves...
feeling limited at all hinders my spirit.
and yet there are times when i feel like i've got so much freedom, that how can i possibly choose and wouldn't someone just fucking tell me what would be best and i could go on and get it done with. but @ the same time i usually decline in asking or taking anyone's advice. a thorny patch of thoughts that cancel each other out and leaving me feeling impartial; spineless. i tend to double-think (1984) things. it's more like triple-think. exponentially-think.
oh also, it's getting wicked cold.
work's alright i mean i don't mind it
out it
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rooftop
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crescent! :] made me think of crescent street.
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now the only thing left to discuss is the details of this armistice.
check my vitals, the truth is vile but vital to this cause.
i've been held hostage, a captive of this passive shell.
give me gravity, give me clarity, give me something to rely on.
jake tyler and i &abbey had a family meeting in our 2x4 kitchen. we're cute. i think we're starting a change jar to fund a skydiving day. or maybe just some shrooms.
mmm, i'd love some nice shroom tea. w/ honey to conquer its dusty taste.
i think of some people from the past quite often. i try not to though, cause, the past is over and the only way to go from here is forward. in space, and time.
and real quick before i peace
i got to have a reunion with meAghan and brit for a cruise to the witch tree with a fat honey dutch. we talked about growing up, not in the sense of knowing how to pay mortgages and things or making your own dentist appointments, but...just look at a picture of yourself from when you were little. as the years go on, many changes occur. t's just weird because looking at 4 year old you, you can say "i am a different person now." of course you are. there are many things now that you know which you didn't at that age. you feel differently about things than you did then. but aren't you also the same? you're still you.
sarah palin is really pretty but please, don't let her be in a position where she could be in charge of the United States. I wouldn't even want her to sub for the U.S. for fifteen minutes.
i love my lovin but not like i love my freedom
i'm having fun but i don't belong in boston. how long will this last?
i should really be 3,000 miles away. with so much debt from student loans...fuck