Hm...

Dec 16, 2004 06:20

So, it's twenty after 6 in the morning, and i feel very awake. I don't know what to write, but i have nothing better to do, so i figure, what they hell.
I have an exam at 11:30. I figured out at 4 am that it was better I just don't sleep, i had planned on getting up a couple hours before the examination to study some more, but if i go to bed now, chances are i'll sleep all day tomorrow, and miss the exam, and that would be mucho badness.
I saw a motly crue video on TV today, and i'm not talking about an oldy. I'm talking about some new single they have. I thought to myself, "WTF!? I thought they were over a decade ago?" Hm...first Velvet Revolver ressurects past rockers in a reincarnation of a rock band, and now a different rock band comes back from the dead all together, to haunt us in our musical dreams.
I decided today that I'm never going to toss my MTU t-shirt. I love this shirt. It has a giant hole in it under the left armpit, and it comes across the side of my boob, but i don't care. I'm going to wear it, and people are going to like it. I'll just wear a tank top under it. Everytime I look at this shirt I think about the time Justin wore it too that dance at my school. He wasn't even supposed to be there, but you know. Little shirt + big boy = really freaking funny.
I miss that kid, like woah.
I saw him this summer. It was weird. But i'm insanely happy i saw him.
Kristoph left me a message while i was at work. I called him, but he didn't answer his phone. I left a message, he didn't call me back. He was online later that night, and he didn't say anything to me. He's so hot and cold, i never know where I stand.
I know that we're never going to date, but I'd like to know whether or not i'm a friend. I don't know. One day I think he gives to shits, the next I don't.
I'm heading home on Friday morning. Go greyhound. That means I won't actually get home until 5 am on Sat. Well, almost 6, but you know.
I'm excited to go home, but at the same time I'm really not. I feel this way everytime I have to go home. I honestly feel like there are only a couple people up there that even care if I'm home, so why bother?
And I always feel like I'm obliged to see people, when all i really want to do is sleep, and sit around, and be lazy, and not deal with people. There is always drama when I go home, and I'd really rather just hide. I'm on vacation man, i don't want to spend it crying.
I cry more up there than I could ever cry down here.
God, this entry sounds fucking stupid. I'm really just rambling, because I need something to fill the hours between now and my exam.
Hm...what else is new? Nothing I guess.
I'm supposed to write this story about when I went home with cara for thanksgiving, but I have yet to start it. Her mom wants to read it when I'm done, and that puts pressure on me for it to actually be worth reading.
Maybe I'll write it while I'm on the bus.
PS. My latest musical obsession: Bleeding Through. I've been feeling like i need something harder than the emo shit I've been listening too. Sucks that we've got 24 hour quiet hours for exams, cause I want to play it really loud.
Anyway, I guess that's it.
Now I'm off to shower.
-lista-
PS. Jenny fucking married that bastard.
whatever.
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