One Acts
Wow... Today was both amazing and strange. I stayed in school all day today, didnt leave last block (For the first time in my Senior Year... No, Im not kidding) it was very odd. Then the One Act Play Festival began. This is an event where 8 different schools come to PRHS through friday and saturday and we all put on a one act play, there are all these rules and regulations and boring crap tha ti dont care about so i wont eliborate :o). So heres the skinny, as "house manager" not only do i get to tell all polandites what to do when we need things done, but i am also in charge of a 180 sum odd kids from other schools. Im not gonna lie, i was nervouse at first...
But OMG then everyone started showing up and it was so high energy and they were all so happy with us and the school. Gram and I formed a welcoming Commitee and walked around talking with and greeting all of the schools. wow I think i made like 50 new friends tonight, (some of them even from Poland!!) and i am so excited :o) it seems like ihavent made a new friend in like a year. literally. i am on such a high right now. by the end of the night gram and i were sitting in the "Poland room" watching Americas funniest home videos, me passed out on a desk from all of the chaos. And get this, i didnt skip out right after. I stayed and helped clean up and the feelings of responsibility was no longer scary, it was really fun. I feel like i helped so many people tonight. and i know its not a big deal to tell a few people which room they need to be in, or where they go next to perform, but the look on their faces going from nervouse and stressed to calm and happy just from seeing my smile and hearing things that i have known forever is extremely satisfying. i feel like i helped making alot of people's nights better. I loved tonight. I feel like nothing is wrong with my life right now, theres nothing to make me feel held back or lazy or anything. I am so happy and compeletely exhausted :O)
Despite my exhaustion I decided as I drove home that the drive back to my house was simply not long enough. I needed to drive around and wind down from all of the good times. So i turned on the ol' IPOD and ITRIP and went on my marry way. Not far, just to an old friends house. They obviously weren't there but it was nice seeing the house for the first time in a year... reasuring, because let's face it, the whole thing was a whirl wind of passion and chaos, completely surreal. But the cool part was yet to come, as i turned onto their road i saw a dear up ahead in the woods off the side of the road so i stopped to look at him and make sure he wasnt gonna jump out.. and THREE more come out of the woods and stepped across!! Okay i know i live in maine but seeing a whole dear family was fun for me :o) and for once not speeding at 60 heading towards them and having a heart attack.
I realized after this incident that right now i am just me. i am just me with no attachments and i am happy at this very moment. i am usually not very happy with myself and maybe thats half my problem. therefore i have decided that this summer is going to be about me. I will be free and happy and i will find ways to make myself happy. I will learn how to like myself more even in hard times, and love my surroundings without the help of others. Im going to take this summer for myself and my friends and my life. I cannot wait for everyone to come home!! summer.. please hurry :OD!!
this whole night has been a surreal and fun. Now all i wanna do is think of different ways i can get more of this. Meeting new people all the time, helping others, and having fun with really good people who are just there for a good time. If anyone has any ideas Let me know :o)
p.s. i cannot wait to do this all again tomorrow.. (even tho itll be the longest day of my life lol 8am-12pm at the school) i cannot wait for the peaceful happy exhaustion. wow. :o)
But OMG then everyone started showing up and it was so high energy and they were all so happy with us and the school. Gram and I formed a welcoming Commitee and walked around talking with and greeting all of the schools. wow I think i made like 50 new friends tonight, (some of them even from Poland!!) and i am so excited :o) it seems like ihavent made a new friend in like a year. literally. i am on such a high right now. by the end of the night gram and i were sitting in the "Poland room" watching Americas funniest home videos, me passed out on a desk from all of the chaos. And get this, i didnt skip out right after. I stayed and helped clean up and the feelings of responsibility was no longer scary, it was really fun. I feel like i helped so many people tonight. and i know its not a big deal to tell a few people which room they need to be in, or where they go next to perform, but the look on their faces going from nervouse and stressed to calm and happy just from seeing my smile and hearing things that i have known forever is extremely satisfying. i feel like i helped making alot of people's nights better. I loved tonight. I feel like nothing is wrong with my life right now, theres nothing to make me feel held back or lazy or anything. I am so happy and compeletely exhausted :O)
Despite my exhaustion I decided as I drove home that the drive back to my house was simply not long enough. I needed to drive around and wind down from all of the good times. So i turned on the ol' IPOD and ITRIP and went on my marry way. Not far, just to an old friends house. They obviously weren't there but it was nice seeing the house for the first time in a year... reasuring, because let's face it, the whole thing was a whirl wind of passion and chaos, completely surreal. But the cool part was yet to come, as i turned onto their road i saw a dear up ahead in the woods off the side of the road so i stopped to look at him and make sure he wasnt gonna jump out.. and THREE more come out of the woods and stepped across!! Okay i know i live in maine but seeing a whole dear family was fun for me :o) and for once not speeding at 60 heading towards them and having a heart attack.
I realized after this incident that right now i am just me. i am just me with no attachments and i am happy at this very moment. i am usually not very happy with myself and maybe thats half my problem. therefore i have decided that this summer is going to be about me. I will be free and happy and i will find ways to make myself happy. I will learn how to like myself more even in hard times, and love my surroundings without the help of others. Im going to take this summer for myself and my friends and my life. I cannot wait for everyone to come home!! summer.. please hurry :OD!!
this whole night has been a surreal and fun. Now all i wanna do is think of different ways i can get more of this. Meeting new people all the time, helping others, and having fun with really good people who are just there for a good time. If anyone has any ideas Let me know :o)
p.s. i cannot wait to do this all again tomorrow.. (even tho itll be the longest day of my life lol 8am-12pm at the school) i cannot wait for the peaceful happy exhaustion. wow. :o)