So kiss me hard cuz this will be the last time that i let you
Well it all came out in the open last nite, finally. The truth hurts, but silence kills. I cant get into specifics becuz quite frankly i dont want to start another comment war. he tells me he still has strong feelings for me. I want him to. Maybe thats my mistake. id take him back. maybe thats my downfall. I dont beleive he is the person that hes being right now. I think, i know, hes better than this. I want him to be above all of this. I want him to prove me wrong.
On the other hand i spent from 7:30 last nite till 1 this morning crying over wut i thought was a good thing. I wish the other one was back home again. He always had a way with making me feel better. He always had that gift. Smiling while crying is so hard. My eyes are still red and dry from last nite. It hurt. I look high, tho, that is to my advantage, if u look high u can play off happiness :o) I forgot wut its like the next morning, waking up and feeling, knowing ur alone. U have no reason to get up out of bed.. I have a reason, i have many, its just this feeling, it will pass.
I dunno wuts going on in my head, in my heart. In his head, in his heart. All i know is pain, and the desire to be needed. I am an emo lil gurl. And right now i hate it. Greggory made me feel better, alex makes me laugh.. i luv u both, thanx for everything. I know u mean well, i just cant help feeling like its me against the world right now.
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights I hate them
Lets start this again for real
On the other hand i spent from 7:30 last nite till 1 this morning crying over wut i thought was a good thing. I wish the other one was back home again. He always had a way with making me feel better. He always had that gift. Smiling while crying is so hard. My eyes are still red and dry from last nite. It hurt. I look high, tho, that is to my advantage, if u look high u can play off happiness :o) I forgot wut its like the next morning, waking up and feeling, knowing ur alone. U have no reason to get up out of bed.. I have a reason, i have many, its just this feeling, it will pass.
I dunno wuts going on in my head, in my heart. In his head, in his heart. All i know is pain, and the desire to be needed. I am an emo lil gurl. And right now i hate it. Greggory made me feel better, alex makes me laugh.. i luv u both, thanx for everything. I know u mean well, i just cant help feeling like its me against the world right now.
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights I hate them
Lets start this again for real