he never looked so good, and i never felt so right

[emo_isnt_dead]

God i love him with every peice of my stupid shattered ass heart. he is my everything and so much more. WHY THE FUCK DOES HE DO THIS?!?!?!?!?!?!



in AIM
hothitter98: well it goes like this, i fell like i dont like or love you anymore
xdrugfxingfreex: are you seroius?
hothitter98: yes
xdrugfxingfreex:ok so this whole fucking time you keptsaying that you loved me and all of that other bullshit?
hothitter98: i do love you,as a friend
xdrugfxingfreex:i fucking hate you
hothitter98: im sorry, you wanted to kno
xdrugfxingfreex:i fucking gave you everything did you ever love me?
hothitter98: yes i did love you all the time,as of latly i just wanna be alone for a bit :-(
xdrugfxingfreex:i love you so damn much
hothitter98: i kno,and im sorry.

now on MSN:

beep beep woop woopy u all up in my ear says:
=*(
ash says:
yoru not crying as much as i am
ash says:
why did you do this to me?
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
u ask me to tell u what i was thinking
ash says:
i told you i have never felt this way before and now you break my heart?
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i kno im so srry
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i do care for you still
ash says:
sorrys not gunna fix it
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i kno
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i love you as a friend still i wanna work things out and stay with you if that helps
ash says:
but you dont love me anymore
ash says:
did i do something wrong?
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i wanna work things out to bring back my fire for you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
its me not you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
-cry on my shoulder if ur gonna cry plz-
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
ashley talk to me plz
ash says:
i felt my heart break on tuesday when i kept crying that night
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
ashley i wanna stay with you i mean that i wanna kepp u happy at all times
ash says:
bu tyou dont love me, thats the thing
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i just fell like the candle we had buring the flame went out and i wnna bring it back
ash says:
why did it go out?
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i dont kno
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
just a quick wind blew it out
ash says:
you siad you would love me forever
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i kno i kno
ash says:
so it was all lies? you saying tha tyou wanted to be with me
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i do want to be with you
ash says:
why?
ash says:
you dont love me
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i do love you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
to a dergee
ash says:
as a fucking friend
ash says:
imso stupid
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
NO UR NOT
ash says:
yes i am,i shouldnt have given you my heart
ash says:
never*
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
its ok im heart broken 2
ash says:
i didnt break it
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
I BROKE IT MYSELF
ash says:
chip,i would have given you anything and everything you wanted to make you happy
ash says:
i fucking t hought about you every fucking second of the stupid day, i fucking was faithful to you, i fucking loved you even when you treated me like shit
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
just stay with me that is all i want right now
ash says:
what i f you never love me again?
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i will
ash says:
i mean,its not like your doing too much to try again,we barly ever fucking talk
ash says:
i cant fucking believe this shit
ash says:
FUCKING TALK TO ME!
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
aww im srry
ash says:
stop saying your sorry when your not
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i ma though
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
ashley will you ever anna be with me again
ash says:
i do wanna be with you, i love you with every peice of my shattered stupid heart, but i cant be with you if you wont love me
ash says:
thats just pointless
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i kno i do want you i mean i gave you my heart u have all my trust and everything
ash says:
everything but the ONE THING THAT I WANT!
ash says:
which is your love
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i kno
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i guess when u look at the facts i do love you
ash says:
what facts?
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
the gave you my heart u have all my trust and everything
ash says:
dont love me b/c i want you to,love me b/c you do
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i do love you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i was haveing a brain fart
ash says:
dont tell me tha tyou love me
ash says:
dont just change your mind b/c i am upset
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
im not
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
im doing that cuz i feel
ash says:
i dont want you to love me as a friend chip
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
its not i love you as my wife lol
ash says:
i dont believe you
ash says:
how are you gunna tell me one sec that you dont love me, which has been this way for like a month, and then all of a sudden say that you do?!
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i had to some thinking bout my feelings for you and i do love you
ash says:
i sitll dont believe you
ash says:
your gunna have to prove to me
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
-kisses ur hand and slowly up ur arm and kisses you with fire-
ash says:
no..i mean REALLY prove it, everythime we fucking talk i want you to somehow prove it to me
ash says:
b/c right now all yoru doing is typing words tome
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
ok
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i will always be an emo boy 2 you
ash says:
its gunna take time for me to trust you when you say it
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i kno
ash says:
b/cbefore you told me when you didnt,so how do i kno that, its happening now?
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i dont know but i do care for you alot
ash says:
i care about you too, and dont get me wrong,i want you to say that you really do love me, that you were just confussed but you need to understand that, thats hard for me to except b/ci have no idea if your really telling me the truth b/ci cant hear it in your voice or see the expressions you use
ash says:
i dont kno if you just saying it to make me stop crying or if its for real
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
im for real i do love you always have and always will
ash says:
dont lie to me
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
im not
ash says:
you jsut said that you didnt feel like you liked or lovedmeanymore
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i kno i kno
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i did some thinking when i wasent talking to you
ash says:
dont bullshit with me chip
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
im not i never have
ash says:
do you nderstand that its hard for me to beleive you?
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
yes i do
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i just miss you so much and care alot for you i dont wanna lose you
ash says:
i dont wanna loose you either, and thats what scares me so much now
ash says:
but your the one doing it all
ash says:
your the one not talking to me
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
awww i srry
ash says:
im just telling you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i kno
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
lalalala
ash says:
that if you were really worried about it then you would stop doing it
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
promise me ull never let me go
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
would u take my hand and never let me go
ash says:
i'llnever let you go,but i cant hold on when you dont want me
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i do want you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i want you to be in my armsa
ash says:
i want to be in them
ash says:
im confused
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i srry
ash says:
on eminute your telling me that you dont love me and now your saying that you do
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
go with ur heart
ash says:
you have my heart
ash says:
or had it
ash says:
i dont kno if you still want it
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i still want it
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i just look at ur picture i smiled
ash says:
if you dont see a future with me, or dont really in your heart want to be with me then tell me right now
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i do want a future and i wanna be with you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
what do u want
ash says:
all i want is you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
ok then
ash says:
but if you make me cry, like i did tonight then it is over between us
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
ok
ash says:
alright then
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
ashley ur my angel and i should treat u like it more
ash says:
yes you should
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
i will do anything to keep u happy
ash says:
i want you to be happy
ash says:
whether its with me or not
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
nly be happy with you
Beep Beep Woop Woop Y u All Up In My Ear says:
<3
ash says: