The battle in my head
I hate thinking really I do. Sometimes I think that's why I come off so random, cos I don't have to think about it, I just say it and get it over with. Though somethings like now they really just get me down, and it's not really like down down. It's just I'm afraid to feel anything again. I am trying to stop myself by pushing what is causing this away, yet I'm feeling bad, cos it's almost like lying errr....I'm such a fuckhead.
I am being so dumb yes. I have talked to Maggie she said I will know what to do when the time is right. I don't think it will ever be right, because I can feel it. I hate getting so critical like this. I don't like being down out and emo. I try and onlyy let people see myy happy hyper side, but ya know...Tonight I am just finding it hard to do.
I am being so dumb yes. I have talked to Maggie she said I will know what to do when the time is right. I don't think it will ever be right, because I can feel it. I hate getting so critical like this. I don't like being down out and emo. I try and onlyy let people see myy happy hyper side, but ya know...Tonight I am just finding it hard to do.