i need to stop _______ (fill in the blank)
i don't know why i'm so scared...ok...well maybe i do...
"i am a visitor here, i am not permanent."
i think i need to learn how to feel certian things at certian times because i'm way off on my timing of things...
"Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday."
this has been killing me inside...but i know that i have to do it...how am i going to get anywhere in life?
"Do one thing everyday that scares you."
" Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life."
thats the freaking understatement of right now...
it just kills me to know that i might not see anyone ever again...
"Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on."
again the understatement of the night...
i feel like i'm just put here to feel remorse and pain...and i feel like i'm going to feel remorse and pain for the rest of my life...i mean...why else would i be sitting on a computer typing this shit out and bawling my eyes out all at the same time? it's mind boggling...well maybe it's not...maybe i'm just pathetic...
"Will someone please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart"
"Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better then making you my bride and slowly growing old together."
"So let me help you remember. I've made charts
and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave
So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling I love you so..."
"don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future."
the kicker for me was when you said those fatal words..."lets be together forever"
and i edited this lyric so it would fit right...
"my heart won't heal right if you keep tearing
out the sutures."
and now...a revised version of a song we all know and love so that it will fit how i'm feeling and so it applies to me...
Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
and not a spoken feeling.
I'm knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
and listening to 80's songs;
quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it...
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right.
Going to our favorite park late at night,
and wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top's singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in friends' backyards,
illuminate the blackest nights.
kool-aid jammers under this moonlight summer sky.
32705 Beechwood, it's time to say, "goodbye."
Get on the bus, it's time to go.
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart,
and eventually you'll finally get it right.
i think it's time for me to let go and get over my fears...
i wish i wasn't such a baby...
o_O - this is a face that says...please kill me now...
happy 5 months my love...i'm just sorry i couldn't make it better...
XXX
"i am a visitor here, i am not permanent."
i think i need to learn how to feel certian things at certian times because i'm way off on my timing of things...
"Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday."
this has been killing me inside...but i know that i have to do it...how am i going to get anywhere in life?
"Do one thing everyday that scares you."
" Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life."
thats the freaking understatement of right now...
it just kills me to know that i might not see anyone ever again...
"Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on."
again the understatement of the night...
i feel like i'm just put here to feel remorse and pain...and i feel like i'm going to feel remorse and pain for the rest of my life...i mean...why else would i be sitting on a computer typing this shit out and bawling my eyes out all at the same time? it's mind boggling...well maybe it's not...maybe i'm just pathetic...
"Will someone please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart"
"Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better then making you my bride and slowly growing old together."
"So let me help you remember. I've made charts
and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave
So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling I love you so..."
"don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future."
the kicker for me was when you said those fatal words..."lets be together forever"
and i edited this lyric so it would fit right...
"my heart won't heal right if you keep tearing
out the sutures."
and now...a revised version of a song we all know and love so that it will fit how i'm feeling and so it applies to me...
Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
and not a spoken feeling.
I'm knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
and listening to 80's songs;
quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it...
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right.
Going to our favorite park late at night,
and wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top's singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in friends' backyards,
illuminate the blackest nights.
kool-aid jammers under this moonlight summer sky.
32705 Beechwood, it's time to say, "goodbye."
Get on the bus, it's time to go.
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart,
and eventually you'll finally get it right.
i think it's time for me to let go and get over my fears...
i wish i wasn't such a baby...
o_O - this is a face that says...please kill me now...
happy 5 months my love...i'm just sorry i couldn't make it better...
XXX