fat and depressed
Have been eating so much crap lately, its getting on my nerves. I was ana/mia on and off for the last 9 years and i miss the power and control i had when i was anorexic. Its been so long since i last starved myself...probably around 3 years ago now...since then its been mia/laxative abuse (addicted since age 15) and over-eating...viscious circle. I just want to get back the control i had with the ano. I dont want to get seriously ill again, but i cant bare being fat and disgusting. I weigh 10.5 stone and want to lose at least one stone.
Everything is so shite at the mo...my depression is getting out of hand...i feel lonely and often get the urge to cut. Havent cut myself in a good few months tho and want to keep a lid on it.
Arghhh just wanna be happy, its not much to ask!
Everything is so shite at the mo...my depression is getting out of hand...i feel lonely and often get the urge to cut. Havent cut myself in a good few months tho and want to keep a lid on it.
Arghhh just wanna be happy, its not much to ask!