They don't give a fuck about us.
so things are ok... lost my 3rd phone this month, hahaha it's kinda funny how shit unravels. I only gotta put up with this half way house bull shit for another week then I can finally have a home again.
It's hard to stack bills when you're getting worked over and screwed :-/
BUT goodnews I get to go to cali on the 16th or 17th but that's around when Gayle and Max come into town and I really want to see them.
It's impossible to call on those who are unavailable in your life.
1 month clean tomorrow chicka WHA!? Who woulda thought
DON'T EVER DO OPIATES
for real.
I need instruments, I am so inspired, I've been working on my cancer like it's some kinda answer, smoke a pack a day to feel kind of ok but my vocal cords are strained but it's ok.
I stand on street corners singing my lungs out for the masses, seriously, humbly humiliated it's something I gotta come to terms with.
I HATE IT HERE, arizona that is. there really isnt much here for me. well there isn't anything here for me. I can't be happy here, really...
Is anybody listening? Or are you just waiting for your turn to speak?
I'm a king of waiting, for what? Everything to bloom. but I missed the flower's blossom so now I'm watching it wilt away. I like to keep it secret under word's beautiful attraction
ATTRACTION? I'm too ugly to know such a word. I have fully accepted I could be alone the rest of my life.
if it's been said good before why change a thing? I'm so over this no I'm not I'm so over you no I'm not, I can play ok pretty well but when my head's down I can't get to sleep my brain beats the shit out of me.
I drowned my heart a long time ago. My downfall has always been my emotions, I'm so broken I can't even fix my life, not like you care you got your own shit.
but i got an open ear for any one who needs it... I'll always be near cause distance is irrelavent just like time, man's measurement of our decay, I don't sleep cause the sun is down I sleep cause I got nothing better to do, but who can I blame cept you and you am I and I am you so who is true cause I can't tell who the fuck I am.
butter my toast and ill love you the most.
It's hard to stack bills when you're getting worked over and screwed :-/
BUT goodnews I get to go to cali on the 16th or 17th but that's around when Gayle and Max come into town and I really want to see them.
It's impossible to call on those who are unavailable in your life.
1 month clean tomorrow chicka WHA!? Who woulda thought
DON'T EVER DO OPIATES
for real.
I need instruments, I am so inspired, I've been working on my cancer like it's some kinda answer, smoke a pack a day to feel kind of ok but my vocal cords are strained but it's ok.
I stand on street corners singing my lungs out for the masses, seriously, humbly humiliated it's something I gotta come to terms with.
I HATE IT HERE, arizona that is. there really isnt much here for me. well there isn't anything here for me. I can't be happy here, really...
Is anybody listening? Or are you just waiting for your turn to speak?
I'm a king of waiting, for what? Everything to bloom. but I missed the flower's blossom so now I'm watching it wilt away. I like to keep it secret under word's beautiful attraction
ATTRACTION? I'm too ugly to know such a word. I have fully accepted I could be alone the rest of my life.
if it's been said good before why change a thing? I'm so over this no I'm not I'm so over you no I'm not, I can play ok pretty well but when my head's down I can't get to sleep my brain beats the shit out of me.
I drowned my heart a long time ago. My downfall has always been my emotions, I'm so broken I can't even fix my life, not like you care you got your own shit.
but i got an open ear for any one who needs it... I'll always be near cause distance is irrelavent just like time, man's measurement of our decay, I don't sleep cause the sun is down I sleep cause I got nothing better to do, but who can I blame cept you and you am I and I am you so who is true cause I can't tell who the fuck I am.
butter my toast and ill love you the most.