OH THE ANGST.....
Well, the most embarrassing thing happened today. I broke down and cried in public. I don't think anyone saw me, but it still sucks. I went to go see Charile and the Chocolate Factory and after the movie Ashlee and her buddy Alex went off and I sat on the ledge of this fountain thing and just started crying. I couldn't hold it back, but I have no idea why it started. I was in a perfectly fine mood just before that. God, I hate being weak. Ever since I broke I am so emotionally vulnerable that the smallest thing gets to me. I hate being emotionally unstable, and the brink of crying at any moment for no reason at all. I don't like people seeing me cry, I don't like to show emotion, so I just hold everything back and keep it all to myself. I guess that's why I'm always so vulnerable, there is too much emotional build up and once the slightest bit gets out, the rest just keeps on bursting out. Fucking emotions. Why do people have to feel for anything? Why are we even here? All we do is fuck the rest of the world up.
Now I am in a agitated mood. God, I feel like I'm bi-polar. One second I am happy then I am pissed off, then I'm all sad and depressed. And then I hate myself for being a little cry-baby about everything, since there are people worst off than I am. I'm such an angsty teenager. Meh.
Now I am in a agitated mood. God, I feel like I'm bi-polar. One second I am happy then I am pissed off, then I'm all sad and depressed. And then I hate myself for being a little cry-baby about everything, since there are people worst off than I am. I'm such an angsty teenager. Meh.