I'm seriouslly out of contol wiht these updates...

[emnash17]

Well today we went and visted the Louve. There i was able to see the famous Mona Lisa!!! And that ws the only highlight of that ginormous palace that we walked only a 1/2 of, if that. the place is freakin huge. it was king louis xiv before he moved to the palace of versialle. Which we were suppose to see this trip, but it turns out that its like 40 minutes away. So we decided to cut that. Still nothin to type home about. hahaha. i have to have some source of entertainment. so i guesss my lame jokes will have to do. Still dont feel all that great since the whole werid night. I wish i wasnt so effected by stuff liek that , but i just cant get it out of the back of my head. By the way she didnt come home last night either in case you were wondering. I really want to move on to italy, i am hoping i will feel more at home. I just feel like i dont belong in paris. I am home sick, and i miss bella, and i sometimes feel like they dont get me anymore. Or maybe they never did, but i thought i understood them (meaning s/j) but i really dont. It just sucks ya know, because i really thought that this would be good. not great, because i know how i am , but at least good. as of now i could have done with out this whole paris shit. who cares about french bread, and french beras (that hat), and french accents and all that crap. Sorry but thats how i feel .......still! i really wish i was here with either my family or you guys, casue this just isnt my thing. I know that porbalby ut a smerk on your face, but it is true. So the only thing i ask is that when you guys post, you dont tell me that things are gonna work out or give me some nice cheezy thing that is suppose to make me feel better about them. i want you to say , yes you are right , they are wrong and there not what you thought they were, and you understand were i am coming from. so thats that for now. by the way new star today was.......drum roll please, "vintage" very cool, that is like the uglest thing i have EVER seen.

later hopefully you guys are on and can im me. i will keep this up for a litle longer though.