will you fall for me the way i want you to?
*"Will You Fall for Me" -Delta Goodrem
About a week and a half ago, I made the right decision. A few days later, I decided to consciously make the wrong decision. Then, before I had the opportunity to carry out that decision, the decision took care of itself. I don't have to face that decision anymore. I was actually kind of looking forward to making the wrong decision-- whether it was because I knew I was going to learn from it, or just because it seemed like a good idea at the time, I'm not sure, but I was looking forward to it. Now, the wrong decision is not even an option and the right decision has pretty much taken care of itself and slapped me in the face. I could just say that I made the right decision to begin with, leave it at that, and no one would ever know. But seriously, what's the point in fooling myself?
I'm not facing any decisions right now, really. I made a decision earlier... a decision that makes me wait for results. I have twenty-one hours of waiting to go. Good Lord, I hope it's less, but it probably won't be. And after those twenty-one hours of waiting, I'll probably end up disappointed. But I did have courage earlier today-- enough courage to make a decision. I'm proud of myself for making that decision. I just have to remember to be patient.
I must make the decision to do my homework now. O.o
Hugs & Breadsticks,
~Em~
About a week and a half ago, I made the right decision. A few days later, I decided to consciously make the wrong decision. Then, before I had the opportunity to carry out that decision, the decision took care of itself. I don't have to face that decision anymore. I was actually kind of looking forward to making the wrong decision-- whether it was because I knew I was going to learn from it, or just because it seemed like a good idea at the time, I'm not sure, but I was looking forward to it. Now, the wrong decision is not even an option and the right decision has pretty much taken care of itself and slapped me in the face. I could just say that I made the right decision to begin with, leave it at that, and no one would ever know. But seriously, what's the point in fooling myself?
I'm not facing any decisions right now, really. I made a decision earlier... a decision that makes me wait for results. I have twenty-one hours of waiting to go. Good Lord, I hope it's less, but it probably won't be. And after those twenty-one hours of waiting, I'll probably end up disappointed. But I did have courage earlier today-- enough courage to make a decision. I'm proud of myself for making that decision. I just have to remember to be patient.
I must make the decision to do my homework now. O.o
Hugs & Breadsticks,
~Em~