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i dont even know how to explain my life nowadays... i make decisions i know i shouldnt and i know if ant were still alive, he wouldnt want me to be living life like this.
im high or drunk or both the entire weekend and the weekdays are semi sober. i dont know why i cant just stop. i have to learn how to say no and to learn how to resist all of this shit.
lets review my weekend or atleast the parts that i remember; [i was with val jamie and andrew the entire weekend]
friday night i think it was ...i remember meeting kraus at his house and you know who was there. i tried saying hi to that fucking asshole and talking to him and he just fucking looked at me. both of us were high but COME ON...okay.. i only remember going to the game and talking to mr and mrs farrace about college for like fifteen minutes then i went to ty's house. some guy made me feel like an asshole becacuse im fucked up at a party and he brings up anthony... so instead of sulking and crying about the whole thing, we both took a beer [bc ant loved beer] said cheers and had it in memory of ant. i never drink beer so i mean that was something i really only do for him. got nice an shitty and got hit on by this weird kid and like yelled at him basically to get away from me... so creepyyy.
sunday; woke up at 1 pm... greatest sleep ever. woke up and took jamie to work then ummm me and val went to the mall and i hung out with my favorites, as always. umm idk i dont remember the rest of sunday.
andd this weekend idk what im doing.. whatev. lataaaa
im high or drunk or both the entire weekend and the weekdays are semi sober. i dont know why i cant just stop. i have to learn how to say no and to learn how to resist all of this shit.
lets review my weekend or atleast the parts that i remember; [i was with val jamie and andrew the entire weekend]
friday night i think it was ...i remember meeting kraus at his house and you know who was there. i tried saying hi to that fucking asshole and talking to him and he just fucking looked at me. both of us were high but COME ON...okay.. i only remember going to the game and talking to mr and mrs farrace about college for like fifteen minutes then i went to ty's house. some guy made me feel like an asshole becacuse im fucked up at a party and he brings up anthony... so instead of sulking and crying about the whole thing, we both took a beer [bc ant loved beer] said cheers and had it in memory of ant. i never drink beer so i mean that was something i really only do for him. got nice an shitty and got hit on by this weird kid and like yelled at him basically to get away from me... so creepyyy.
sunday; woke up at 1 pm... greatest sleep ever. woke up and took jamie to work then ummm me and val went to the mall and i hung out with my favorites, as always. umm idk i dont remember the rest of sunday.
andd this weekend idk what im doing.. whatev. lataaaa