The Girl Called Emmy
Did you know I used to go by Em?
Em!ly still calls me Em some times, though she's pretty good about calling me Emmy (of Emmyface, or some variation there of. <33) Shay still calls me Em. A couple of my RL friends still call me Em.
You wouldn't think it would be a big deal, being Em or being Emmy. But it is.
They say names have power, they define us. A name we chose to use is more a part of us then anything else, even if it's the name we were given by our parents.
Em was the girl I was 2 years ago.
I'm in no way her. I don't even know if I see her in myself. I was Em to noah and tony. Em is everything I was during that time. I'm not her. I don't WANT to be her.
I like to think that I, Emmy, am stronger.
I've got more trip ups, for sure. I've got more bad days.
But I appreciate the good ones more then i ever did before.
I seeing the world differently, I try to live in the moment and see each day as it's own entity, instead of a jumbled rush to a unknown conclusion.
I know life is precious and should never be taken for granted.
I know not to waste time on hate.
I'm not perfect, oh god, I'm so far from perfect. But i'm real now, and i can cry if i need to, but when I laugh it means more. I feel like I'm starting to understand who i am, and who I wanna be.
I'm Emmy.
(i really hope none of this sounds to crazy)
Em!ly still calls me Em some times, though she's pretty good about calling me Emmy (of Emmyface, or some variation there of. <33) Shay still calls me Em. A couple of my RL friends still call me Em.
You wouldn't think it would be a big deal, being Em or being Emmy. But it is.
They say names have power, they define us. A name we chose to use is more a part of us then anything else, even if it's the name we were given by our parents.
Em was the girl I was 2 years ago.
I'm in no way her. I don't even know if I see her in myself. I was Em to noah and tony. Em is everything I was during that time. I'm not her. I don't WANT to be her.
I like to think that I, Emmy, am stronger.
I've got more trip ups, for sure. I've got more bad days.
But I appreciate the good ones more then i ever did before.
I seeing the world differently, I try to live in the moment and see each day as it's own entity, instead of a jumbled rush to a unknown conclusion.
I know life is precious and should never be taken for granted.
I know not to waste time on hate.
I'm not perfect, oh god, I'm so far from perfect. But i'm real now, and i can cry if i need to, but when I laugh it means more. I feel like I'm starting to understand who i am, and who I wanna be.
I'm Emmy.
(i really hope none of this sounds to crazy)