Baby your hair it smells like cigarettes, when i climb into bed with u at night
So the 4 of july was a hoot, i had a real good time. Me and tim went with zack and lindserz, and since the boys are dorks they had went earlier that day and parked ed's truck at ottawa so we' have good seats, so then wen we got there they parked it on that little hill going into the parking lot and watched them! Lol me and lindz went a lil crazy with the woo's lol but i was very impressed w/ o-town fireworks, i had never seen them b4. So after i split up with them & i went to briget's that was a ton of fun as well and i dint even take part in all the drunkeness, do to my early morning babysitting job. Met some ppl from streator, so that also made it fun.
The next day i was playing baseball with the kids and the little one got hit in the face with the ball and got a bloody nose, luckily blood doesnt bother me cuz it was oozing all over, and ruined my white tank but its alright, cuz shes fine thank goodness, never a dull moment.
That night me lindz and manda did our annual tuesday movie night which of course u all know is 50 cent popcorn night, we ended up seeing bewitched, very funny, i recommend.
Next night i went swimming at f's that was fun as well, we overflowed the hot tub though, also very funny, lol.
Today i ran to wal-mart to get all the odd's and end's left to buy for italy which is on monday! i also started packing, since today is like the first day i wasnt babysitting or at the hospital all day, i felt bad not being there, but he had some other type of scope thingy go on today so that meant hed be pretty out of it, this also meant no hospital good at all today!!! very cool, not that i dont enjoy it, it was just nice to mix it up a bit. They still dont know whats wrong with him though which is very depressing, and real hard on him and my mom, i guess i dint know it was really getting to me until last night i had to go to his house to get his mail and newspaper, and i was on the phone with tim and completely lashed out on him for no reason, and hes been nothing but such a good friend to me, feel bad about it but it happens, but i guess ive been doing that to a lot of ppl lately, which isnt like me at all, especially to all my friends, who are just trying to help anyways, im a "keep things in" type of person, so i apologize to ppl that i have been doing that to, but i guess this time its my way of dealing. . .i talked with bird dog today and she was talking bout stuff to and i dont know it was just nice to have someone to talk to about it. I kinda let out that i dont know if i am as excited for italy as i thought id be, cuz i dont know if i wanna b that far away during such a bad time, but i guess thats just how things have to be, but hopefully it'll be easier on the fam when im gone, cuz its one less to worry about, im just nervous of what im going to have to come home 2. It'll all work itself out though, always does.
I looked away Then I look back at you. . . . . .You try to say The things that you can't undo. . . If I had my way I'd never get over you. . . . Today's the day I pray that we make it through. . . Make it through the fall. . . . Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
*Luv U Everyone*