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[emmurchie]

Well I just made all of my posts friends only, mainly because I'm bored.

So if you would like to read my entries, Comment on this and i'll be glad to add you as a friend.

Comments

[bobs_ur_uncle]

erin i could go down your path...i have other shit to worry about..im tired of having the same fight every other week..i know where i stand..im not hidding anything anymore..im done seeyah

[emmurchie]

so.. im concerned about you and you still think im trying to pick a fight.

i wish we could be friends but there are things that would just make me feel awful. like knowing you smoke and drink i feel so regretfull, like I didnt do my job, I didnt help you. and i obviously have no place trying to help you right now, proboaly because im threatining something you dont really care about (NOT trying to pick a fight), my friendship.

sorry i dont know why i open my mouth anymore. everything get misunderstood.

and im glad to hear that you're not hiding it anymore. huge step.

[bobs_ur_uncle]

look..when ever it comes to anything with me i feel judge by you..most of the time i try and you just judge you never actually listen to me..and with the drinking and smoking..how is it your job to stop me..its up to me im a adult...i smoke and drink cus i chose to..and you know what our freindship does mean something to me..but with you sometimes it feels like a one way street..please do not take this in the tone that im mad or anything like that cus i really am not...its just whenever we get to this point you never really hear me..i hate having to talk like this..it just adds to all the anger stupid computer

[emmurchie]

im sorry i asume things and jump to conclusions all of the time. i could go in to depth and how my mom does it all of the time and its how i learned to deal with things..but that doens't make it right and its not an excuse or anything.. so im sorry.

i want to say thank you for telling me straight up that im being an idiot lol.

if i had listened, i wouldnt have asumed that you were still drinkin heavy and telling people you're not drunk etc.
rory, im so glad to hear that you can admit it. like that is a fucking huge step. =>
i blame you for making the same stupid mistakes when we were going out when im still doing them myself.

So i'm sorry.

[bobs_ur_uncle]

i guess the easy way to put it is that none of use are perfect...i have tried to live thinking that everythings great..and im tired of that..right now im just getting sick of my behaviour..im tired of it as well..im not saying im suddenly going to be perfect..but im going to work on it..hell im 20 is kinda lifting me up into adulthood..im still learning and making mistakes...i guess thats just how i do things...also from were this all started from what i really ment was that i just wnant you have a good grade 12..cus from where i am and looking back its important to take this time and have some fun...(and to pass everything)

im sorry as well..

[emmurchie]

okay so letting you in on how im feeling like shit over basketball was too much for me. I can't handle sharing that much with you right now.

but maybe If I see you, i'll say hi.

Even though I know you're working on drinkin n w/e.. i dont know if I can talk to you if you're in that state. Is that a fair thing to say? I know you dont think its my fault that you drink or anything I cant help how I feel about it. anyways you tend to rape your girlfriend infront of me when youre drunk lol. I know i said i can handle you having a new girlfriend..and i dont mind a kiss or whatever but when the kiss lasts like over a min, it gets kind of annoying.

[bobs_ur_uncle]

o man first off im so sorry abou that night..i was really not thinking what so ever..and you can ask anyone the next day i was hoping that i hadnt pissed you off at all..at the beginning i was really trying not to do that..and i understand that you wouldnt want to talk to me when im drunk..hell i wouldnt eather..and i know that stuff with b-ball was to much..i guess i just want to help..and its not my place to do that

[emmurchie]

the only thing that pissed me off was I'd be talking to michelle or jenn..or luke and you'd grab them and start dancing with them and i'd be alone. Or you'd dance really close to me, swinging your elbows almost hitting me.

and i know you want to help..just no. not now. maybe with time.