The fragile substance of my soul

[emmram]

New fic after a long time! Well, since the end of January, but apparently even a month and a half of writing nothing at all makes me rusty enough that I had to struggle to get this story going.

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[borgmama1of5]

YOU CANNOT STOP THERE!!!

[emmram]

Eep? It seemed like a good place to leave it hanging...

Thanks for reading!

[malwinchester]

AGREED. This is really good and I'd love to see a sequel.

[vail_kagami]

Ow, ouch. I have a lot of confidence in Sam and his ability to survive anything, so I guess this might actually work. But I also fear it might be a tremendously stupid thing to do.
Mean of you to leave that open - but effective.
Loved the fic!

[emmram]

Sam's a survivor, all right. Who knows what might happen if he actually decides to look behind the wall? It might destroy him, but I think he has equal chances of making it through.

Thank you so much!

[mimblexwimble]

YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE IT THERE?

I love this! The imagery is great - Wall-Dean breaking apart like that? Awesome. It's so very harsh - especially with poor, poor Dean having to go through Hell to trigger Sam, ouch - but very well done. I hope Sam has what it takes to survive!

[emmram]

Yep. *cowers*

Thank you so very much! I enjoyed writing Wall-Dean breaking apart as the pressure in Sam's mind increased - that's where the story started to flow for me (I'd written and rewritten the first 300 words of this story 15 times, no lie).

Dean dipping into his own Hell-experiences was painful to write, but I'm glad it came through.

Thanks again!

[kettle_o_fish]

GUH. This is intense. And Dean is scary. So scary. All of the Deans. Scary scary scary.

I really like the angle you took for the (possible) solution though. I never really considered that before. It would be kinda sweet if Show came up with a similar idea. I really don't want someone to just pop in, snap their fingers, and be all "Poof! Fixed it!" I really like the idea of Sam's salvation resting on his own shoulders.

[emmram]

Dean kind of scared me too, in this fic. *shudders* And there are quite a few avatars of Dean here, aren't there. Huh.

I really like the idea of Sam's salvation resting on his own shoulders.

THIS. Exactly.

Thank you!! I'm glad you liked this. :D

[kettle_o_fish]

I love this, and I'm torn, because I want to flail and be all "MORE MORE MOAAAR," but it's such a good creepy, poignant, cliffy ending.

I kinda hope Show does something similar. I feel like we never see anything work out for Sammeh. He gets killed, Dean brings him back, but it sucks because now Dean's gonna die. Sam fails at saving Dean. He hits the demon blood with good intentions but that was a disaster. He saves the world, but it pretty much sucks for everyone. I just want the poor kid to accomplish something and not have it blow up in his face. Aw. *pets the traumatized Sammy*

Then again, I guess nothing ever really works out for Dean either. Oh boys. *facepalm*

[reading_is_in]

Oooh, well done. I agree with radiumgirl in hoping Show doesn't cop out but takes some time to explore the issue - Dean being the Wall is a great idea.

[emmram]

Thank you!

I'd love to see what Show does with this - they've built up Sam's experiences in Hell and the possible consequences of the Wall breaking so much that there has to be a big payoff down the line.