i'm so tired, but i can't sleep...
so it's been about a week and let's sum up... or at least in terms of boy troubles.
so for the past few weeks, i've been fooling around with this kid nathan, and it's been sort of nice, sort of relationship like and sort of based on the sex part. the first week was all hanging out and then hooking up, now it's all rooted in the hooking up. this is partly my fault but whatever. there are times when this has been inopportune... like last night i missed out on quality floor four time because i was in my room fooling around... and everyone knew that that's what i was doing and when i came out of my room, at the same time as nathan, i felt awkward. i really didn't want a boyfriend in the beginning of school and i don't want what has happened in the past to happen again. i don't want to miss out on the opportunity of making my own friends because i am off fooling around with someone who in the end, i will probably not be with so why did i waste my time.
and then there is the concern of nicolas. last night i went to a "throwback" concert with nicolas, john, roya, sol, frederick and the bfs floor fellow jenny. it was a lot of fun and at the end of the night, nicolas came by to say goodnight. we ended up hanging out for a couple of hours and john came in for a little bit too. there was a lot of flirting and we very nearly hooked up, including a light kiss on the lips before i said "i can't, i'm dating someone." he said "thank you for not letting me make an ass out of myself" and we cuddled some more and then went to bed. but i kind of feel like i wish i had hooked up with him.
i don't really know what to do... especially since nathan is not around. so we'll see.
in other news, i auditioned for soulstice a capella... the audition went great. then i fell down the steps of the music building. i ran into than last night with one of his music friends and when i told him that story, his friend said "that was you! that was hilarious!" it added injury to my already beaten self who is still recovering from a tackle while playing ultimate on thurday. i have a bruised head, a bruised knee and a scraped elbow. i have an intramural game of frisbee tomorrow in molson stadium... i'm excited.
well i'm so sleepy... i went to bed at 4:00 am last night so i'm tired. i think i may have a nap... hopefully my head will stop thinking. well off to sleep i go.
ps- walk through montreal barefoot in the fall... i dare you to.
so for the past few weeks, i've been fooling around with this kid nathan, and it's been sort of nice, sort of relationship like and sort of based on the sex part. the first week was all hanging out and then hooking up, now it's all rooted in the hooking up. this is partly my fault but whatever. there are times when this has been inopportune... like last night i missed out on quality floor four time because i was in my room fooling around... and everyone knew that that's what i was doing and when i came out of my room, at the same time as nathan, i felt awkward. i really didn't want a boyfriend in the beginning of school and i don't want what has happened in the past to happen again. i don't want to miss out on the opportunity of making my own friends because i am off fooling around with someone who in the end, i will probably not be with so why did i waste my time.
and then there is the concern of nicolas. last night i went to a "throwback" concert with nicolas, john, roya, sol, frederick and the bfs floor fellow jenny. it was a lot of fun and at the end of the night, nicolas came by to say goodnight. we ended up hanging out for a couple of hours and john came in for a little bit too. there was a lot of flirting and we very nearly hooked up, including a light kiss on the lips before i said "i can't, i'm dating someone." he said "thank you for not letting me make an ass out of myself" and we cuddled some more and then went to bed. but i kind of feel like i wish i had hooked up with him.
i don't really know what to do... especially since nathan is not around. so we'll see.
in other news, i auditioned for soulstice a capella... the audition went great. then i fell down the steps of the music building. i ran into than last night with one of his music friends and when i told him that story, his friend said "that was you! that was hilarious!" it added injury to my already beaten self who is still recovering from a tackle while playing ultimate on thurday. i have a bruised head, a bruised knee and a scraped elbow. i have an intramural game of frisbee tomorrow in molson stadium... i'm excited.
well i'm so sleepy... i went to bed at 4:00 am last night so i'm tired. i think i may have a nap... hopefully my head will stop thinking. well off to sleep i go.
ps- walk through montreal barefoot in the fall... i dare you to.