CHRISTMAS EVE!
Christmas has almost arrived. It doesn't feel awesome as I want it to. Coming here is nice, but I miss just spending time at home. Part of me really wants to be there for my last "official" Christmas at my house. As much as I hate admitting to say it, I miss my Mom. I wish she could be here, instead of working her butt off tonight.
Christmas makes me so happy. I watched "Miracle on 34th Street" just a little while ago. I can't believe I'd never seen this cute and adorable movie before, but I loved it!
Here at the Stahl house I made up my bedroom complete with "AERO" beds and suitcases on the floor. Ooo! Sounds inviting. Everyone is running around being busy as usual. My dad's side of the family has always been like this. Their always busy doing something or another. Tonight my aunt and uncle are volunteering for the Christmas Eve service to play Mary and Joseph. That leaving Isabella the part of baby Jesus. It's really sweet and all, but I hate being in the light. Having to meet all their friends, talking to people I barely know, striking up conversation about the surface things like the weather, etc. I just don't want to do that this year. I'm just sick of meeting my aunt's friends! Everytime I've come to visit her there is always someone I have to get to know and feel weird around. I just want them, no other people, just them. It's not like I'm jealous she has friends or jealous she pays attention to them. I don't care about that, I just hate having to meet so many people. Can't I be antisocial this Christmas?
I remember last year coming here. We had to spend Christmas with both sides of my aunt and uncle's family. The Todd family is my aunt's side and the Stahl family is Daren's side. It's so confusing; trying to remember names of people, their ages, their marriages. When does this madness end? I love love love them to death, but I don't want to meet anymore people! :p
I sound pretty crazy and upset, but I'm not really. Just complaining, venting in this thing so all my frustrations are gone and I can enjoy this Christmas.
Hmm.. trying to remember my favorite Christmas. I don't think I really have one in particular. Although, this one Christmas, it was I think 3 or 4 years ago. I think I was 14. It was really great. I remember doing all the things I wanted to do and just relax at our house. No hustling and bustling. No parties (except later Christmas day). Those were the good ol' days.
I'm sitting here realizing that this could be my new pad next year. It's really crazy. College is really scary, but really exciting to think about at the same time. I know I'm going to be starting my life. It's the beginning and I can't wait for it to start.
As Judy sang,
"Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas."
:-)
Remember those cookies for Santa, he needs to stay fat.
Christmas makes me so happy. I watched "Miracle on 34th Street" just a little while ago. I can't believe I'd never seen this cute and adorable movie before, but I loved it!
Here at the Stahl house I made up my bedroom complete with "AERO" beds and suitcases on the floor. Ooo! Sounds inviting. Everyone is running around being busy as usual. My dad's side of the family has always been like this. Their always busy doing something or another. Tonight my aunt and uncle are volunteering for the Christmas Eve service to play Mary and Joseph. That leaving Isabella the part of baby Jesus. It's really sweet and all, but I hate being in the light. Having to meet all their friends, talking to people I barely know, striking up conversation about the surface things like the weather, etc. I just don't want to do that this year. I'm just sick of meeting my aunt's friends! Everytime I've come to visit her there is always someone I have to get to know and feel weird around. I just want them, no other people, just them. It's not like I'm jealous she has friends or jealous she pays attention to them. I don't care about that, I just hate having to meet so many people. Can't I be antisocial this Christmas?
I remember last year coming here. We had to spend Christmas with both sides of my aunt and uncle's family. The Todd family is my aunt's side and the Stahl family is Daren's side. It's so confusing; trying to remember names of people, their ages, their marriages. When does this madness end? I love love love them to death, but I don't want to meet anymore people! :p
I sound pretty crazy and upset, but I'm not really. Just complaining, venting in this thing so all my frustrations are gone and I can enjoy this Christmas.
Hmm.. trying to remember my favorite Christmas. I don't think I really have one in particular. Although, this one Christmas, it was I think 3 or 4 years ago. I think I was 14. It was really great. I remember doing all the things I wanted to do and just relax at our house. No hustling and bustling. No parties (except later Christmas day). Those were the good ol' days.
I'm sitting here realizing that this could be my new pad next year. It's really crazy. College is really scary, but really exciting to think about at the same time. I know I'm going to be starting my life. It's the beginning and I can't wait for it to start.
As Judy sang,
"Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas."
:-)
Remember those cookies for Santa, he needs to stay fat.