when pain turns to anger...
I can't stop thinking about the accident. I am nervous when I ride in a car, and the idea of shopping for a new one has me on a razor's edge. I'm also getting really angry inside...angry in such a way I haven't been in quite some time.
I'm angry at the negligence of the man who was driving the other car. I'm angry that his mistake could have killed all of us. I'm angry that every muscle in my body feels too tight and burns with each movement. It takes me a full minute to bend down and put panties on. I'm angry that I'm missing work; therefore, my students aren't receiving crucial instruction and practice weeks before high stakes testing. I"m angry because the fucktard that caused all of this is under-insured, ergo my insurance is mostly responsible for the pain and suffering and absorption of costs. I'm angry that the idiotic state of Louisiana allows motorists to drive with 10/20/10 insurance, which translates into 10K for injury, 20K if someone is in the car, and 10K for property. I'm angry that I am missing yoga for a week or more, just when I was getting into my practice and holding poses that I never imagined my body would hold. I'm angry that I'm in excrutiating pain. I'm angry that I feel guilty for being angry, after all I am alive.
It's fucking bullshit.
I'm angry at the negligence of the man who was driving the other car. I'm angry that his mistake could have killed all of us. I'm angry that every muscle in my body feels too tight and burns with each movement. It takes me a full minute to bend down and put panties on. I'm angry that I'm missing work; therefore, my students aren't receiving crucial instruction and practice weeks before high stakes testing. I"m angry because the fucktard that caused all of this is under-insured, ergo my insurance is mostly responsible for the pain and suffering and absorption of costs. I'm angry that the idiotic state of Louisiana allows motorists to drive with 10/20/10 insurance, which translates into 10K for injury, 20K if someone is in the car, and 10K for property. I'm angry that I am missing yoga for a week or more, just when I was getting into my practice and holding poses that I never imagined my body would hold. I'm angry that I'm in excrutiating pain. I'm angry that I feel guilty for being angry, after all I am alive.
It's fucking bullshit.