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sometimes all i want to do is curl up on the couch and watch episodes and episodes of "Lost" (i watched the first four on Sat. night and got hooked). Luke got back from Des Moines and we hung out all yesterday, but now I'm feeling sad and insecure and wimpy, and he's at work. And before he gets back I've got to go to an HPS TC meeting and an all-clinic annual budget meeting, so I'll be at the clinic 'til 10 at the earliest. Not that Luke is a very comforting person anyway - he just distracts me. :P
I think the root of my melancholy today is med school apps. I don't have a clear idea of what is and isn't reasonable for me to apply to. Furthermore, there are reasons for me NOT to want to go to every place to which I'm currently applying (mostly geographical). My pre-med friends have been freaking out, and their anxiety is rubbing off on me. Apparently the May 25 and May 31 MCATs (I took the former) were crazy hard for everyone, and so now a bunch of people have already signed up for the July MCATs and started studying. I ordered transcripts from everywhere except UC Berkeley today. This is because UCB's transcript system is down indefinitely. Fuck.
Add to this that I have a $2500 debt on my UCB bill, due to a mix-up with a fellowship check. Everyone - Chem Dept, Grad Fellowships Office, Billing Office - agree that that charge should be erased; but no one seems to have the power to erase it. I came home today to over 10 e-mails about HPS Section coordinator business. I'm overall excited about the job, but sometimes it seems like trying to move a mountain. And I only get paid $420 a month for it. Oh yeah, and I'm running out of money and having to pull from my savings. The API Wellness lady finally got back to me a couple weeks ago; after the first in-person interview, she said that I was pretty much hired, but I had to go through a language competency interview and a final follow-up interview. I did the language competency interview last week, but no word yet on the final interview. It's frustrating that I need the money now, but this hiring process is dragging on ... it's been a month since I applied for the job.
More complaints about med school apps ... So I'm really tired of moving. I like Berkeley. And I've lost the energy to make new friends; I feel like I have wonderful friends already, they're just all around the country. I wish I could stay here. Too bad UCB doesn't have a med school (although, like everything here, it would probably be fraught with administrative problems). And too bad UCSF is impossible to get admitted to.
sigh.
I think the root of my melancholy today is med school apps. I don't have a clear idea of what is and isn't reasonable for me to apply to. Furthermore, there are reasons for me NOT to want to go to every place to which I'm currently applying (mostly geographical). My pre-med friends have been freaking out, and their anxiety is rubbing off on me. Apparently the May 25 and May 31 MCATs (I took the former) were crazy hard for everyone, and so now a bunch of people have already signed up for the July MCATs and started studying. I ordered transcripts from everywhere except UC Berkeley today. This is because UCB's transcript system is down indefinitely. Fuck.
Add to this that I have a $2500 debt on my UCB bill, due to a mix-up with a fellowship check. Everyone - Chem Dept, Grad Fellowships Office, Billing Office - agree that that charge should be erased; but no one seems to have the power to erase it. I came home today to over 10 e-mails about HPS Section coordinator business. I'm overall excited about the job, but sometimes it seems like trying to move a mountain. And I only get paid $420 a month for it. Oh yeah, and I'm running out of money and having to pull from my savings. The API Wellness lady finally got back to me a couple weeks ago; after the first in-person interview, she said that I was pretty much hired, but I had to go through a language competency interview and a final follow-up interview. I did the language competency interview last week, but no word yet on the final interview. It's frustrating that I need the money now, but this hiring process is dragging on ... it's been a month since I applied for the job.
More complaints about med school apps ... So I'm really tired of moving. I like Berkeley. And I've lost the energy to make new friends; I feel like I have wonderful friends already, they're just all around the country. I wish I could stay here. Too bad UCB doesn't have a med school (although, like everything here, it would probably be fraught with administrative problems). And too bad UCSF is impossible to get admitted to.
sigh.