TMI
I just learned lots of new things today. Things that will change somethings, other things...not so much. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I mean, I never did know what to do, but now it's worse. Things are all topsy-turvy. I thought I had it figured out. I was gonna stop pushing forward, I was gonna make him take more action, I was gonna let it all just happen. Now...I'm so confused. Everything is in techni-color instead of black and white. Why can't it just be in black and white? I'm only 17! (well...almost) Why do I have to step in and take on the part of the lead? It's not fair. I love him and I love his family(even if he doesn't know it), so I think everything will work out. Hopefully. I'm not sure. I don't know why I think things will be different. They will though, at least for now, because I'm backing off. Even though that probably means things will be really slow for awhile. It's ok, but I'm not going to try what I want to. I don't know what to do anymore (oh wait, I've already said that) *sigh* Only time will tell, and only time will be able to help things.