I can't forget
Everyone who has ever done something to me knows how I am. I forgive, but I don't forget. You can wrong me, double-cross me, piss me off, but if you're a good friend I'll forgive you. But at the same time, when we get in an arguement 5 months later, I'll remind you of it. That's just how I am, how I operate. I don't think that's something that will ever change about me.
And out of everyone, he should know that the best.
He told me that I'm living in the past, and that I need to forget everything that happend. Yet at the same time, he brings up all the good things and all the feelings we once had and says he wants that back. Now how is that fair? So I'm supposed to forget all the bad times, but remember all the good ones? Maybe in some fantasy world that may work out. And I would like to do that, but I won't because it isn't fair.
It's not fair because for all those years, I WORKED HARD TO BE A GOOD, HONEST, LOVING PERSON. Not just for those years either, I try to be like that to everyone, everyday. There is not one thing in my life I regret. I look at things that I should regeret and instead turn them into learning experiences, but I do not fully regret any one of those things. And that is how I want to live the rest of my life. Because like I said, I work hard to be a good person. If I'm working hard to be that way, why would I just forgive people who don't try hard, and just throw all the bad things they did out the window? How about this one: MAYBE YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THEM.
He told me he regrets them, and he said how could he not feel guilty everytime I bring them up. And yeah, I used to bring it up just to piss him off, but I haven't done that for awhile, and that was only because I was hurt. When you shatter someone's heart in a thousand pieces, break every promise you made to them, lie to them constantly, admit you cheated and lied and I think they then have the right to be slightly bitter and remind you of bad things. But like I said I haven't done that because again, I realized it was mean.
Forgetting everything bad he did and in turn remembering the good just isn't going to happen. I'm not that kind of person, and I can't be. If I tried my hardest to make things work, and try my hardest everyday to be a decent person, why couldn't he, and why can't he?
It's ESPECIALLY not fair since HE was the one that sent me a text message, while I was having a wonderful Christmas with my family, reminding me that I broke up with him a year ago. He can't forget things, but I'm supposed to? And I'm the one living in the past?? Yeah.... ok.....
I don't know what he wants me to say, and I don't know how he expects me to only forget the bad and not the good. It's ALL OR NOTHING
(and by the way, that's the title of the song we first danced to, since you couldn't remember it.... as usual....)
And out of everyone, he should know that the best.
He told me that I'm living in the past, and that I need to forget everything that happend. Yet at the same time, he brings up all the good things and all the feelings we once had and says he wants that back. Now how is that fair? So I'm supposed to forget all the bad times, but remember all the good ones? Maybe in some fantasy world that may work out. And I would like to do that, but I won't because it isn't fair.
It's not fair because for all those years, I WORKED HARD TO BE A GOOD, HONEST, LOVING PERSON. Not just for those years either, I try to be like that to everyone, everyday. There is not one thing in my life I regret. I look at things that I should regeret and instead turn them into learning experiences, but I do not fully regret any one of those things. And that is how I want to live the rest of my life. Because like I said, I work hard to be a good person. If I'm working hard to be that way, why would I just forgive people who don't try hard, and just throw all the bad things they did out the window? How about this one: MAYBE YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THEM.
He told me he regrets them, and he said how could he not feel guilty everytime I bring them up. And yeah, I used to bring it up just to piss him off, but I haven't done that for awhile, and that was only because I was hurt. When you shatter someone's heart in a thousand pieces, break every promise you made to them, lie to them constantly, admit you cheated and lied and I think they then have the right to be slightly bitter and remind you of bad things. But like I said I haven't done that because again, I realized it was mean.
Forgetting everything bad he did and in turn remembering the good just isn't going to happen. I'm not that kind of person, and I can't be. If I tried my hardest to make things work, and try my hardest everyday to be a decent person, why couldn't he, and why can't he?
It's ESPECIALLY not fair since HE was the one that sent me a text message, while I was having a wonderful Christmas with my family, reminding me that I broke up with him a year ago. He can't forget things, but I'm supposed to? And I'm the one living in the past?? Yeah.... ok.....
I don't know what he wants me to say, and I don't know how he expects me to only forget the bad and not the good. It's ALL OR NOTHING
(and by the way, that's the title of the song we first danced to, since you couldn't remember it.... as usual....)