Leaving is always hard...
"Leaving is always hard, but if it were easy, what would that say about our time together?"
"Change isn't easy becasue you lose part of yourself along with it, but you gain something special as well..."
This morning was Father Mike's last sermon at the University Parish, he's being relocated. Those were a few things he said this morning. There was also one about helping others, and how you grow within yourself and learn about yourself when you help others, they aren't the only ones who benefit.
Anyway, it made me think of Bobby, especially the first one, because it was so hard to leave him! On Tuesday before I left, he bought me a dozen long stem red roses, a beautiful card, a nine page letter about how much he loves me, and a cute fuzzy puppy dog. He tied the letter with a red ribbon and attached a key to it, and told me it was the key to his heart. I wrote him a letter too, but it was only a page. It still said everything I wanted it to say, the important stuff. He pretty much promised me the world and swore he wouldn't cheat on me. I've pretty much lost all faith in guys before I met Bobby, but I truly believe every word he says. Missy and John came over on Tuesday too to help us pack up the Land Rover and the car. They both even said Bobby would never cheat on me. When we were at his Dad's house the week before, he wrote me a note on a napkin (he couldn't find anything else) and it was about not cheating and about how hes worried with me being at school and how much I mean to him.
Bobby is honestly the best thing that has ever happend to me. I know everyone around us thinks its a joke that we're so in love in such a short amount of time, but I really don't care. To me its just us, and its really no one else's business. Since the first time we kissed I knew Bobby was the one. No one has ever made me feel the way he does. I've said it in previous entries, but he really does treat me like a princess. Like I am the most important thing in the world to him, and I come before anything else. I mean don't get me wrong I've met nice guys before, but I've never had one make me the center of his universe until Bobby. And I think thats how it should be, because I'm the same way with him. There's no drama, and we never get mad at each other, and theres no game playing, or strong jealousy, and theres so much trust and faith... I mean yeah we worry because we're far away from each other, but thats about it. I miss him more than I worry about him. I would give up everything I have to be with him, if thats what it took. It's just weird because we were both like still hurting from previus relationships and what not, and not really looking for someone, and we found each other. And now, I just feel like my life is complete with him. The things he wrote in my card and my nine page letter really just say it all...
Tuesday night before I left we just layed in my bed for two hours after everything was packed into the Land Rover, and talked. I balled like three times I think, to the point where it was like uncontrolable. He'd sit there and wipe away my tears, and that made me cry more. Guys usually don't know what to do when girls cry, but I think he handled it pretty well. (He cried too, but shhhhh... don't tell anyone!) When I walked him out to his car, we kind of just stood in the driveway crying and holding each other. It just seemed stupid to me to leave the best thing I ever found, and to leave my Mom at a time she really needs me, thats why I was crying. But school is important, and I'd never give up my scholarship, but it still felt stupid. Once I heard Bobby crying harder than I was, I tried to control my crying, and I stopped enough to tell him that I love him. It's the first time either of us said it, but it's true, and I just felt like it was the perfect time. I just didn't want to scare him and say it like too early, even though I knew I loved him for awhile. He said he wants to be with me forever, and I was like "Hunni, forever is a LOONG time!" Everything is just so perfect between us, and I think we will be like that forever. I told him he has to get John to buy Missy a ring because we can't get married before they do, haha! I think Missy would be pissed.
Well since I haven't updated in awhile.... before I left to come back to IUP, I took everyone out to dinner for Bobby's birthday (Missy, John, Shannon, Bobby and I). That weekend we went to Atlantic City for 2 days as like an "extended birthday", lol. Shannon came with her friend Terry, and he's hilarious. He's a Steelers fan, but we all have flaws in life.. haha! We had a blast, and it was so amazing to be at the beach with Bobby and just like have time to ourselves. We stayed at the Tropicana, which was gorgeous, and even though the weather was kind of crappy it was still a good time. Once we got back I pretty much spent the week at Bobby's Dad's house in Bethlehem, because he was away and asked Bobby to watch the dogs. It was so nice to just fall asleep with him every night. Every morning when I woke up, he would be like "Good morning beautiful", or "hey gorgeous" or just kiss me on the forehead and call me princess or hunni or something. It's really amazing how the simplest things in life can make a person so unbelievably happy.
I went to Eagles training camp and got a ton of signatures on my jersey, the best were Trotter and Akers, I didn't get Kearse though, my boy! But there's always next year!
Now I'm at IUP for RA training... fun fun! No, I'm glad to be back (even though i had to leave my baby) But it's my LAST YEAR! I'm really excited for it!
"Change isn't easy becasue you lose part of yourself along with it, but you gain something special as well..."
This morning was Father Mike's last sermon at the University Parish, he's being relocated. Those were a few things he said this morning. There was also one about helping others, and how you grow within yourself and learn about yourself when you help others, they aren't the only ones who benefit.
Anyway, it made me think of Bobby, especially the first one, because it was so hard to leave him! On Tuesday before I left, he bought me a dozen long stem red roses, a beautiful card, a nine page letter about how much he loves me, and a cute fuzzy puppy dog. He tied the letter with a red ribbon and attached a key to it, and told me it was the key to his heart. I wrote him a letter too, but it was only a page. It still said everything I wanted it to say, the important stuff. He pretty much promised me the world and swore he wouldn't cheat on me. I've pretty much lost all faith in guys before I met Bobby, but I truly believe every word he says. Missy and John came over on Tuesday too to help us pack up the Land Rover and the car. They both even said Bobby would never cheat on me. When we were at his Dad's house the week before, he wrote me a note on a napkin (he couldn't find anything else) and it was about not cheating and about how hes worried with me being at school and how much I mean to him.
Bobby is honestly the best thing that has ever happend to me. I know everyone around us thinks its a joke that we're so in love in such a short amount of time, but I really don't care. To me its just us, and its really no one else's business. Since the first time we kissed I knew Bobby was the one. No one has ever made me feel the way he does. I've said it in previous entries, but he really does treat me like a princess. Like I am the most important thing in the world to him, and I come before anything else. I mean don't get me wrong I've met nice guys before, but I've never had one make me the center of his universe until Bobby. And I think thats how it should be, because I'm the same way with him. There's no drama, and we never get mad at each other, and theres no game playing, or strong jealousy, and theres so much trust and faith... I mean yeah we worry because we're far away from each other, but thats about it. I miss him more than I worry about him. I would give up everything I have to be with him, if thats what it took. It's just weird because we were both like still hurting from previus relationships and what not, and not really looking for someone, and we found each other. And now, I just feel like my life is complete with him. The things he wrote in my card and my nine page letter really just say it all...
Tuesday night before I left we just layed in my bed for two hours after everything was packed into the Land Rover, and talked. I balled like three times I think, to the point where it was like uncontrolable. He'd sit there and wipe away my tears, and that made me cry more. Guys usually don't know what to do when girls cry, but I think he handled it pretty well. (He cried too, but shhhhh... don't tell anyone!) When I walked him out to his car, we kind of just stood in the driveway crying and holding each other. It just seemed stupid to me to leave the best thing I ever found, and to leave my Mom at a time she really needs me, thats why I was crying. But school is important, and I'd never give up my scholarship, but it still felt stupid. Once I heard Bobby crying harder than I was, I tried to control my crying, and I stopped enough to tell him that I love him. It's the first time either of us said it, but it's true, and I just felt like it was the perfect time. I just didn't want to scare him and say it like too early, even though I knew I loved him for awhile. He said he wants to be with me forever, and I was like "Hunni, forever is a LOONG time!" Everything is just so perfect between us, and I think we will be like that forever. I told him he has to get John to buy Missy a ring because we can't get married before they do, haha! I think Missy would be pissed.
Well since I haven't updated in awhile.... before I left to come back to IUP, I took everyone out to dinner for Bobby's birthday (Missy, John, Shannon, Bobby and I). That weekend we went to Atlantic City for 2 days as like an "extended birthday", lol. Shannon came with her friend Terry, and he's hilarious. He's a Steelers fan, but we all have flaws in life.. haha! We had a blast, and it was so amazing to be at the beach with Bobby and just like have time to ourselves. We stayed at the Tropicana, which was gorgeous, and even though the weather was kind of crappy it was still a good time. Once we got back I pretty much spent the week at Bobby's Dad's house in Bethlehem, because he was away and asked Bobby to watch the dogs. It was so nice to just fall asleep with him every night. Every morning when I woke up, he would be like "Good morning beautiful", or "hey gorgeous" or just kiss me on the forehead and call me princess or hunni or something. It's really amazing how the simplest things in life can make a person so unbelievably happy.
I went to Eagles training camp and got a ton of signatures on my jersey, the best were Trotter and Akers, I didn't get Kearse though, my boy! But there's always next year!
Now I'm at IUP for RA training... fun fun! No, I'm glad to be back (even though i had to leave my baby) But it's my LAST YEAR! I'm really excited for it!