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i can't believe we're expected to be adults now.
i don't think i'm ready to be an adult.
it scares me that in the next 4 months, i'm going to turn 18 (even though i'm the baby of the group, it's still a bit deal.. to me.), go on holiday with 15 of my best friends to a far away country all by ourselves :P, sit some of the most important exams of my life and get the results back, ultimately decide my future by those results and the uni i do/ don't get into, the subject i do/ don't study, and the consequences of all of that.
in four months time, if i fail my exams, or even get ABB (like last year) i will probably get a job and may not end up going to university at all. if i get AAA then i'll go to birmingham and i'll be living away from home. which will be the most amazing thing in some ways, great experience, moving on and away from school but oh my god it's university. which is an adult place... for adults.
i will miss the security of school. i will miss knowing that, whatever i do, someone will be there to sort it out for me. be it my parents or my teachers... or even my friends. i think our teachers, even though we complain about them alot, are really amazing. they have been there throughout everything for seven years and now it's like being pushed into the real world.
so much has changed over the seven years i have been at watford. i think i'm a totally different person to how i was in primary school, not that any of you knew me back then. i went to michelle's house earlier with joanna and walking down her road reminded me of all the things we got up to as like 12 yr old kids. seems so recent. then y11 came and went, we did our gcses and got through them, stayed in sixth form and now we're at the end of that too. i remember walking into the tennet hall seeing everyone in their white shirts for the first time really vividly, me and kellie cheering when we were put back into the same form... and now it's all finished.
i know we'll all stay friends. we all love each other too much to not stay in contact, i hope when we are all proper grown ups (not sure thats ever gna happen to me) we will all still know each other because i couldn't find a nicer, more varied, more supportive and amazing set of friends.
i don't think i'm ready to be an adult.
it scares me that in the next 4 months, i'm going to turn 18 (even though i'm the baby of the group, it's still a bit deal.. to me.), go on holiday with 15 of my best friends to a far away country all by ourselves :P, sit some of the most important exams of my life and get the results back, ultimately decide my future by those results and the uni i do/ don't get into, the subject i do/ don't study, and the consequences of all of that.
in four months time, if i fail my exams, or even get ABB (like last year) i will probably get a job and may not end up going to university at all. if i get AAA then i'll go to birmingham and i'll be living away from home. which will be the most amazing thing in some ways, great experience, moving on and away from school but oh my god it's university. which is an adult place... for adults.
i will miss the security of school. i will miss knowing that, whatever i do, someone will be there to sort it out for me. be it my parents or my teachers... or even my friends. i think our teachers, even though we complain about them alot, are really amazing. they have been there throughout everything for seven years and now it's like being pushed into the real world.
so much has changed over the seven years i have been at watford. i think i'm a totally different person to how i was in primary school, not that any of you knew me back then. i went to michelle's house earlier with joanna and walking down her road reminded me of all the things we got up to as like 12 yr old kids. seems so recent. then y11 came and went, we did our gcses and got through them, stayed in sixth form and now we're at the end of that too. i remember walking into the tennet hall seeing everyone in their white shirts for the first time really vividly, me and kellie cheering when we were put back into the same form... and now it's all finished.
i know we'll all stay friends. we all love each other too much to not stay in contact, i hope when we are all proper grown ups (not sure thats ever gna happen to me) we will all still know each other because i couldn't find a nicer, more varied, more supportive and amazing set of friends.