My Worst Nightmare come true....
Today i finally pieced everything together. For a long time i've been denying to myself and to other people that their relationship is more than a friendship. Today i found out the truth! For a long time Andy and I have been having problems, and i've given him multiple opportunities to break up with me, i even gave him that opportunity today, but apparently he wants to hold on to me until he is sure that his and Kristen's relationship will develop. I found out that apparently he has been looking for a reason to break up with me and Kristen likes him again and he likes her. I don't understand why he's still lying to me and telling me that they are just friends...I love him, and i trusted him and he lied to me. He told me he wasn't john and he wouldn't hurt me in the same way, but he is doing exactly the same thing. I trusted him to be with me, and to treat me with love and respect. I feel like every time he has told me he loved me this past weekend he was lying...that when he had sex with me and kissed me it meant nothing to him, and i just dont know what to do. If i could talk to him i could either clear this up as a misunderstanding or find out that he doesn't love me anymore, but he's not at home he's at Kristens. Which is how i know deep down that its going to be the worst...that he has been lying to me, and he loved her all along, and i meant nothing to him. Anyway i'm going to try and sleep...try and figure out where to go from here...