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august 1. fastest summer ever? i'd say so.
next week will be my last week at the Ltown desk, and my last summer week at Aerospace. these friends I have made from my CA staff i really really hope to hang on to. for some reason i feel like we're going to try and stay in touch and it wont end up working...but what a pessimistic way to think about life. hopefully some of them will at least hit me up for meals from the diner since i always have extra points.
i am so so excited about the new year - back in cville with some of the best people ever, but then 40 new freshman! i feel like its so much better this year than last with the fact that i can relax and i know what to expect from training and move-in and the first few weeks of ridiculousness. it only i could decide on a good theme...
so i think im going abroad in the winter. i cant decide where - either lesoto or the netherlands. why why whyyyy cant the netherlands program be IN lesoto??? that would make life so much better. i just dont think i could write a convincing essay on why i want to study in lesoto when the program is based on things that i no longer want to do with my life. and the netherlands - perrrfect. but only two weeks instead of three!
i dont know. for some reason, even though specific parts of my life are falling apart and i normally would be upset, im in an amazing mood. its a great feeling knowing that things can be perfect even when theyre not. if that makes any sense.
you know how i was discussing songs that bring me back to a very specific memory? well there are smells like that too. my boss at Aerospace uses the same cologne that Alex did. its the strangest thing, because i went into his office for the first time on monday and my immediate first thought was to him. just an interesting thing, seeing as how i havent been in the same place as Alex since October of freshman year. (omg. thats almost two years ago)
thinking of him when i smell whatever cologne it is and knowing that everything was ok is probably half the reason that i know everything is ok now. because life moves forward and changes happen and even though i become terrified of forgetting important people or places or events, moments like that make me remember that i never will.