i never though this would happen.

[emmacolleeen]

i'm finally growing up.
i'm finally realizing i need to act like an adult.
i hate people looking at me and thinking i can't act my age.
i'm almost eighteen for god's sake.
this is pathetic.

for the past month it's been coming together.
i'm making good decisions, including getting new friends.
sure i smoke and drink, but so much more comes first now.
i'm moving, i'm starting college, i'm getting a job.
i need to start acting eighteen, it's time for me to support myself.
and at this very moment i'm the happiest i've ever been.

losing him was hard, but getting my self-confidence back is better.
and i have a boy who is worth so much more time then him.