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i can't do basic chemistry. let's analyze this: i calculated my grade in chem right now and it's a C+. this is introductory chemistry and i can't even get a freakin B. i can only afford 1 C this semester and that letter has already gone to anatomy. well, there goes my gpa. there goes my chance at nursing school. i tried so hard and did so well to get where i am right now and then all of the sudden i'm doing bad. i'm stuck in a rut. i don't know what i want to do with my life. if i can't do basic chemistry how am i going to be a nurse!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i have 4 tests on monday and of course they are both in anatomy and chemistry (plus to the 2 labs). i know i shouldn't give up but i'm not understanding anything when i thought i was and i'm doing bad and all i want to do right now is give up (and cry)! but really i shouldn't even be wasting a minute of my time because i should be studying every chance i get. i feel like these aren't even the hardest classes i could be taking and i can't even do them. maybe i wasn't cut out to do something with medicine. but then what am i supposed to do? i'm at a point where if i can't even do something that i WANT to do, what AM i going to do? i know this wasn't made to be easy...and i'm not treating it like it is. i think i've worked very hard in all of my classes this semester. i mean, i could've worked harder...but each class takes up so much time and sometimes i can't devote all my time to just one class when there's other stuff to be done. i need a break from school to figure out what i really want to do. i'm counting the days until december. but then next semester i'm taking just as hard of classes. that puts me back to square one. freaking out about my grades cuz that's all i have to depend on to get me into the nursing program. ugh. :(
i have 4 tests on monday and of course they are both in anatomy and chemistry (plus to the 2 labs). i know i shouldn't give up but i'm not understanding anything when i thought i was and i'm doing bad and all i want to do right now is give up (and cry)! but really i shouldn't even be wasting a minute of my time because i should be studying every chance i get. i feel like these aren't even the hardest classes i could be taking and i can't even do them. maybe i wasn't cut out to do something with medicine. but then what am i supposed to do? i'm at a point where if i can't even do something that i WANT to do, what AM i going to do? i know this wasn't made to be easy...and i'm not treating it like it is. i think i've worked very hard in all of my classes this semester. i mean, i could've worked harder...but each class takes up so much time and sometimes i can't devote all my time to just one class when there's other stuff to be done. i need a break from school to figure out what i really want to do. i'm counting the days until december. but then next semester i'm taking just as hard of classes. that puts me back to square one. freaking out about my grades cuz that's all i have to depend on to get me into the nursing program. ugh. :(