ehhhh
i'm feeling a little strange right now.
i met a new boy.
he is fucking amazing on every level possible.
i've seen him the last 3 days and spending time with him makes me smile uncontrolablly, if that's even a word.
i get this feeling when i'm with him or talking to him that i haven't gotten since i met jesus.
it's so weird and i love it.
so bummed that he leaves tomorrow to go on tour though for like a month or some shit like that.
i miss him as soon as he leaves, and now i can't see him for forever.
i told him i didn't want him to break my heart, and he said he wouldn't.
we'll see how that one ends up, right?
i mean tommy said he wouldn't hurt me and then he dumped my ass on monday and made me feel like shit about it by doing what i consider a guilt trip, but he considered to be pouring his heart out.
whatever though.
last night i think i may or may not have made a mistake.
i'm not quite sure how i feel about what i did yet, but i'm sure as the day progresses i'll either start feeling worse about it or better, hopefully better.
school is amazing.
i love the friends that i've made and i love hanging out with them outside of class.
going to school is what i look forward to every day and i can't wait for class the next day.
i've met people that i hope will end up being life long friends, for real.
my meds aren't fucking me up as bad anymore.
i have good and bad days.
i'm hoping today is a good day because i'm hungry and don't feel sick for once.
i'm gonna try to eat some fruit in a few minutes.
there's a cantaloupe sitting right next to me and it looks sooo good.
yummy.
frank got back this morning.
i'm so excited to see him.
apparently he is taking me to a wedding reception tonight, even though i was gonna bake this new boy cookies.
we'll see how that ends up.
i really can't wait to see him.
we are going to warped tour on friday.
then weekend after next, we're going to vegas.
i hope i get to see him every single day that he's home.
i'll totally cry if i don't get to.
i know i'm not gonna want him to leave again.
i wish he wasn't in the stupid navy anymore so i could see him all the time and hang out every day.
hopefully seeing him and school will keep me busy and my mind off other things and other people.
i don't know.
i feel weird.
i don't like it, but i love it at the same time.
ok.
i'm gonna eat.
fuck yeah!
i met a new boy.
he is fucking amazing on every level possible.
i've seen him the last 3 days and spending time with him makes me smile uncontrolablly, if that's even a word.
i get this feeling when i'm with him or talking to him that i haven't gotten since i met jesus.
it's so weird and i love it.
so bummed that he leaves tomorrow to go on tour though for like a month or some shit like that.
i miss him as soon as he leaves, and now i can't see him for forever.
i told him i didn't want him to break my heart, and he said he wouldn't.
we'll see how that one ends up, right?
i mean tommy said he wouldn't hurt me and then he dumped my ass on monday and made me feel like shit about it by doing what i consider a guilt trip, but he considered to be pouring his heart out.
whatever though.
last night i think i may or may not have made a mistake.
i'm not quite sure how i feel about what i did yet, but i'm sure as the day progresses i'll either start feeling worse about it or better, hopefully better.
school is amazing.
i love the friends that i've made and i love hanging out with them outside of class.
going to school is what i look forward to every day and i can't wait for class the next day.
i've met people that i hope will end up being life long friends, for real.
my meds aren't fucking me up as bad anymore.
i have good and bad days.
i'm hoping today is a good day because i'm hungry and don't feel sick for once.
i'm gonna try to eat some fruit in a few minutes.
there's a cantaloupe sitting right next to me and it looks sooo good.
yummy.
frank got back this morning.
i'm so excited to see him.
apparently he is taking me to a wedding reception tonight, even though i was gonna bake this new boy cookies.
we'll see how that ends up.
i really can't wait to see him.
we are going to warped tour on friday.
then weekend after next, we're going to vegas.
i hope i get to see him every single day that he's home.
i'll totally cry if i don't get to.
i know i'm not gonna want him to leave again.
i wish he wasn't in the stupid navy anymore so i could see him all the time and hang out every day.
hopefully seeing him and school will keep me busy and my mind off other things and other people.
i don't know.
i feel weird.
i don't like it, but i love it at the same time.
ok.
i'm gonna eat.
fuck yeah!